So a small update on where I have been. I jumped in with both feet and have been going to about 2 AA meetings a day on average. Since I first posted I have relapsed about 3 times but my new sober date is August 13th and on Friday I will have two weeks sober. I got a sponsor and have begun to work on the first step with her. We meet every Saturday now. I now pray (though I still need much practice with this one) I have pretty much cut the friends out of my life whom I used heavily and often with and basically were just my using friends. I have begun to fill my phone with numbers of people I meet in AA and have a group I unofficially call my home group. Oddly enough it primarily a gay mens meeting, which works for me, since I tend to be very distracted by men my own age.
During this time I am going through a breakup with a man I love very much, who is one of the best people I met, but I am still staying sober, even if I dont like all these new feelings that come with it.
Ive been getting out of my house more and more and trying to understand where my emotions come from and what to do with them when they bubble up. I really dont know much at this point, just to go to meetings, call people and dont use. I also know I dont want my former life of lies, loneliness and misery where I was barely treading water and only going down hill. That was not living.
I am finding sobriety weird and sometimes wonderful and feel like I am somehow changing, though (of course) slowly.
Last night was really surreal to me, because for the first time another AA called ME up when he was desperate, sad, lonely and on his way to the bar to drink because he didnt know what else to do. And I was able, by listening to him and speaking with him to help him stay sober. I never saw that happening.
I am really proud of even being able to stay sober for as long as I have and know I can get real time under my belt if I keep doing the next right thing.
Welcome to MIP, Katie. I love your share. This all sounds brilliant to me & a wonderful inspiration of recovery. Keep up this great work & you'll be flying like it already seems you are. Sobriety gets better, deeper, more fulfilling & strong & you can do whatever you want with it if you keep the discipline of what helped you get sober in the first place. Namely the steps for me. I work 10,11,12 on a daily basis & they help me to keep on growing. I am proud of you. What a great example you are. Thank you for reaching out here today too. Recovery love & fellowship, Danielle x
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Great to hear you have been going to lots of meetings and staying sober!! Hope you have made some female friends there who can help you on your journey! I love my girlfriends in AA now, we are like a family of sisters and it is awesome!
Takle care and stick with it!
Joni
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(((Katie))) That is wonderful to hear - good for you!
Emotions and what to do with them when they bubble up? Oh My God! Yes I remember that so well now you just shared it.......that will get better.......
I love what you said " I really dont know much at this point, just to go to meetings, call people and dont use" I just love the simplicity of that !! They say "Keep it Simple" and you are !!!! You have a sponsor too! That is great.
Sending you lots of love and WELL DONE on nearly 2 weeks!
Louisa xx
P.S. Just took my cat to the vets today for her check up and she looks just like that cat in your Avatar!!!!! Beautiful !!!!
Nice to hear you update. That means you want to get well. Keep doing the basics and work the AA program in the book. You will be amazed before you are half way through.
