My initial state before going into recovery was restless, irritable and discontented. That is why I drank alcohol, so that I could get a sense of ease and comfort. I got restored to sanity by the steps 3 to 9. Step 2 tells me about the objective of the steps which is a restoration to sanity. That objective is realised after step 9. The BB says sanity would have returned and if tempted we will recoil. The defence against the 1st drink is now there. What now? The emergence of a new life. We are called to be happy, joyous and free. Once the old is removed, new is starting to grow. The first thing I noticed about my new life was that fear of people and economic insecurity was gone. Freedom from worldly cares and regrets about my past were gone. I felt contentment in the little things in life. I get joy from planning and doing little projects, or riding my scooter. But my best joy is to see a sick man come in get better. I wait for this opportunity. In fact I pray for this. That is one of the reasons I still go to meetings.
Thank you Gonee, so much for your post. Going to meetings is a wonderful opportunity to see how people are growing and to see the sick pick up the book and keep coming back, just like me. hugs jj
i am just starting my recovery journey and i really enjoyed your post. i am still terrified and feel sooo alone. it is almost impossible to believe that could change??
Ah, the restoration of sanity. It's one of the things I wanted for so long, but was always just out of reach while drinking. Thank God He gave me just enough to get sober, and lets me gain a little more every day. Life beyond my addictions has far surpassed anything I ever could have dreamed in the past. I'm still amazed how most things just work themselves out, with little and sometimes no effort on my part. The fear of people is slowly leaving, but the economic insecurity is still something I struggle with. I know that all my needs will be provided for, but sometimes it's hard to wait. Reminds me that my timing still sucks sometimes lol.
The fear of people is slowly leaving, but the economic insecurity is still something I struggle with. I know that all my needs will be provided for, but sometimes it's hard to wait.
Brian
I so understand this. I have a fear of something breaking in my house and I have no idea where I would come up with the money to fix it. The fear of people is also leaving. Just wanted you to know I can relate!
