I realized that the garden of my Life was lacking flowers and filling up with weeds. These came in the form of my nurturing unhealthy associations with some people in my life who really don't have my best interest at heart, or their OWN best interests.
The last few days along with a major re-organization around my apartment, I have re-organized my garden as well, and have pulled some of the weeds so that the flowers I have planted (solid recovery friendships of late, mostly women) have more room to grow.
There are only so many hours in a day, and I need to utilize the hours I have for self-care and healthy friendships in ways that will grow my garden with love and sunshine. My Higher Power is giving me the courage to do this. Some of the weeds cry out and try to cling to the soil, and I am tempted to care-take and afraid to hurt feelings. But I must do this work in order to get my garden growing the way me and my HP want it to grow.
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
If I've heard this twice it means I need to pay attention to the message and this is the second time I've heard this message while in coincidence I have been taking care of my own garden. That the message has come twice from women in recovery only emphasizes that my HP uses what my HP deems most important to get it across to me. It was the women in recovery who mostly saved my butt...so I pay attention. I am stepping up in service and need to discover what is growing and useful and what is not in order to be of greatest use. Mahalo JoniJoni again. ((((hugs))))
Cultivating your circle of friends, in the fellowship, is crucial in your first 5 years, along with making it to 5 years. AA census of 1990 showed that the average AA had 4.7 years which indicated that a lot us leave before making it to 5 years. This disease, much like cancer, has a remission period of 5 years imo, after which your odds of survival go up exponentially. Our AA population is front end loaded with tons of members in thier 0-3 years, then not many between 4-9, then it really picks up after 10 years (accumulated survivors). Those folks successfully cultivated their AA network of friends and are firmly planted in the AA Garden of fellowship.
Cultivating your circle of friends, in the fellowship, is crucial in your first 5 years, along with making it to 5 years. AA census of 1990 showed that the average AA had 4.7 years which indicated that a lot us leave before making it to 5 years. This disease, much like cancer, has a remission period of 5 years imo, after which your odds of survival go up exponentially. Our AA population is front end loaded with tons of members in thier 0-3 years, then not many between 4-9, then it really picks up after 10 years (accumulated survivors). Those folks successfully cultivated their AA network of friends and are firmly planted in the AA Garden of fellowship.
That is interesting Dean... didn't know that but can see it at the meetings I go too... folks are usually under two years or over 10 years..
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"A busy mind is a sick mind. A slow mind, is a healthy mind. A still mind, is a divine mind." - Native American Centerness