Went to back to back meetings tonight. Kind of got some perspective on whats going on and with the help of my family here on M.I.P. and friends in the program. I just got a phone call from my brother. Just as I was typing. He doesn't want me living here if I'm getting high. I promised him I will not relapse before telling him. And the result would be going to the hospital. This is wreaking havoc on my brain. I'm going to be going through some physical withdrawals these next few days. My brother said our whole family has to sit down together so I can get honest with them about what's going on. By doing this and trying to dry up at home they should support me. It's going to be tough but if it gets to be too much I will check in to a hospital. Not sure if I'm repeating myself, I just really wanted to say thankyou for your kind words of inspiration. I think this can still work. May 15th sounds like a good day to claim as my sobriety date.
Yes, tomorrows meeting is at 4:30. They are having a sandwich day at the local club. An eatin' meetin' Not sure if I will eat though. I don't remember the last time I ate. Oh well...........
Justin, if you get too sick, please get some help. I am glad your mood seems to be improving, even if only slightly. You are an important, valuable creature and people love you. You have loved yourself before, and I know you will again. Don't forget that.
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Justin! there is No thinking at all it can work!. IT WORKS IF YOU WORK IT! So good to hear you this morning. We love you and so does you HP. Whatever it takes Justin,hospital,home,doctors etc .Give yourself some credit for sharing your pain,none of us would have to know any of this if you weren't honest here.Honesty is the antidote to diseased thinking!!Its "one day at a time" I wouldn't be too concerned about what your clean date is I would focus only on this day.Writings say we can plan for tomorrow but not at the wasted expense of today!!You have given me strength as I head off to a 10:00 morning meeting today to share my ESH and know with what God puts in my heart,thoughts and words to share someone may decide,thru the grace of their HP, it is time to find " a new way to live"!! thank you ,have a blessed day!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
