Talk about a recipe for a delicious, steaming hot bowl of calamity!! No WONDER I nearly lost the last morsel of sanity within me the other night. Some prayer, 2 nights of decent sleep (7-8 hours), some fruit and milk and chicken and fish and spinach and oranges and cheese later (plus of course ice cream and a latte or two thrown in for good measure), and a dash of counseling, and serenity has returned. SERENITY and PEACE OF MIND have returned. So has focus and energy. Blessed company for this very busy and stressed alcoholic.
I have good guidance all around me. You people told me to stop, and to slow down, and to sleep, and to eat. Things I could not manage on my own, nor without a Higher Power's help. Unmanageability- to think that it could be so simple as to not be giving myself the rights to basic biological needs, which my very physical survival depends on! I can take a lesson from my precious doggy... when she is sleepy, she sleeps. Her bones and chewy sticks can wait, if she is tired. When she is hungry, she eats, or she looks at me and wiggles her butt in the language that she and I share, and I know her food bowl is empty without even checking. When she is lonely, she wanders over and looks up at me with those beautiful innocent brown eyes and she gets the LOVINS of a lifetime, every night. Lucky her, I have never seen her angry. I have seen her concerned, yes, and bark out of fear or concern, but she is never angry. When she is afraid, she tells her "master". And when she comes to bed, she rests peacefully and happily in her loving "master's" arms (I like mommy better, but my HP is not my "mommy", and you see the relevance I am getting to... I hope).
God LOVE you alcoholic life-savers, each and every one.
And now, I shall go and get ready for group early, so that I can enjoy a hot bath before hand. See how this works?
Thanks so much. ((((((((hugginz))))))) Joni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
No Thank you! You reminded this alcoholic why all that is so important. We forget how important we are and how we need to keep ourselves in tip top shape!!! Thanks for your post!
Out of all the things I have learned around the tables... HALT is at the top of my list... everything in it was a trigger for me... and it was a lack of respect for it that I slipped many years ago...
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"A busy mind is a sick mind. A slow mind, is a healthy mind. A still mind, is a divine mind." - Native American Centerness