I still haven't had a drink....

Oblong · Veteran Member

I still haven't had a drink....

Aquaman · MIP Old Timer

My Devil is a weak, broken little boy who only feels grown up and safe when it's drunk.

My Angel is a man. Man enough to trust a power greater than myself to heal that broken child and grow it up to become twice the man I ever was.

Peace,
Rob

ljc · MIP Old Timer

If I dont take that first drink, I cant get drunk.

When I am willing to do whatever it takes to stay away from the first drink, then something miraculous happens ... I dont get drunk.

SUSIE · Senior Member

I like that Aquaman!! very cool!! Stay strong Oblong!! You will feel so impowered in the morning!!

Larry_H · MIP Old Timer

Have you a sponsor? Have you called her? Called other group members?

We have all had days like you describe.

Contact with my HP and other alcoholics helped me get though those days.

Larry,
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Learn to let go. That is the key to happiness. (Buddha)

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

oblong, grab your pillow and end the day sober. You'll feel different tomorrow and grateful that you didn't give in to your disease.

Aquaman · MIP Old Timer

Dean's SO right on.

In my mid-20's I used to be the night manager at the highest volume Pizza Hut in the US and we did ONLY DELIVERY! Downtown Denver, Colorado west from the skyscrapers, east to the hooker motels, north into The Hood and south into the artist's district and all points in between. The delivery area was too crime-ridden to offer carry-out. We didn't even have a sign.
Every night I had to run that joint like a submarine-commander; shouting out orders and confirming statuses in military-style lingo from my command-center, routing drivers, tracking orders, monitoring inventory, focusing my crew and keeping the hardest working pizza-team in the country from killing each other. Good times...good times.

I had two laminated signs taped to my dispatch counter (besides the one that said "You get robbed for $20...you cry. You get robbed for $200...the next driver might die. Use your drop-box."

One that said "F**k me once; shame on me. F**k me twice...run." and another that said

"Every shift ends."

Oblong...every shift ends, but the shift goes a lot more smoothly when you use your team.

Peace,
Rob

-- Edited by Aquaman on Tuesday 27th of April 2010 11:54:57 PM

Rob84 · MIP Old Timer

Keep the faith, we are in this together.

Thanks For sharing.

Rob

Oblong · Veteran Member

Thanks everyone.
At this point you guys are my sponsors whether you know it or not.

I didn't drink.

I have a question. Does the urge to drink ever go away? Is this feeling something that I can expect to deal with on occasion for the rest of my life? Or at least does it lessen at all?

Toad · Senior Member

Hi,
I was told "after I surrender something, The Higher Power either removes it,
or gives me the Grace to deal with it. That has been true for me.
Proud of you !!!
Toad

SteveP · MIP Old Timer

Hey Oblong, well done for not taking that first sip. I still get that feeling sometimes too, which is when I really need to lean on the AA program. I've not been in that long. According to the Big Book, Dr Bob, one of the co-founders of AA still had that feeling for over a couple of years. But even in him in subsided eventually. And he never gave into it.

Keep coming back!

Steve

whitewhineoh · Veteran Member

Well done oblong! I've had that happen a bunch of times. Especially when I'm really stressed. The suggestion from "Living Sober" of having something sweet usually helps me. I usually have a lolly pop or something so I can have it in my mouth for awhile.

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

WhiteWhinoh...that worked for me too..but I think it's probably because we were/are both winos and wine has lots of sugar...lol (but true).

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Aquaman wrote:

Dean's SO right on.

In my mid-20's I used to be the night manager at the highest volume Pizza Hut in the US and we did ONLY DELIVERY!

Aqua-dude,

my second job was making pizzas and the Hut (age 18). At that time, we were the highest producing store. We made about 350 pizzas a night and that was before the conveyor belt (ovens) so it was really hectic. I later got a job at a high end French restaurant http://www.laubergechezfrancois.com/. I would work there as a prep cook from 8am to 4pm, then haul butt over the Pizza Hut in Mclean Va, to sling pizzas till 11 pm. I got delirious most nights after working 12 hours, and looked for ways to amuse myself, usually messing the waitresses. One night I was tossing the pizza dough up in the air, spinning it like the Italians do lol, I originated the "hand tossed" at the Hut biggrin . I threw one pretty high and it got away from me and landed square on top of a passing waitress covering her entire head and neck (it was a large thin crust lol). I laughed so hard that I couldn't out run her, and she whacked me with a tray.

Larry_H · MIP Old Timer

StPeteDean wrote:

Aquaman wrote:

Dean's SO right on.

In my mid-20's I used to be the night manager at the highest volume Pizza Hut in the US and we did ONLY DELIVERY!

Aqua-dude,

my second job was making pizzas and the Hut (age 18). At that time, we were the highest producing store. We made about 350 pizzas a night and that was before the conveyor belt (ovens) so it was really hectic. I later got a job at a high end French restaurant http://www.laubergechezfrancois.com/. I would work there as a prep cook from 8am to 4pm, then haul butt over the Pizza Hut in Mclean Va, to sling pizzas till 11 pm. I got delirious most nights after working 12 hours, and looked for ways to amuse myself, usually messing the waitresses. One night I was tossing the pizza dough up in the air, spinning it like the Italians do lol, I originated the "hand tossed" at the Hut . I threw one pretty high and it got away from me and landed square on top of a passing waitress covering her entire head and neck (it was a large thin crust lol). I laughed so hard that I couldn't out run her, and she whacked me with a tray.

Dean that visual picture in my mind made me laugh hard. That was funny, well mabe not to the waitress, but funny to everyone else. (LMAO)

Larry,
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You may not be able to change a situation, but with humor you can change your attitude about it.

-- Edited by Larry_H on Thursday 29th of April 2010 06:29:10 PM

gonee · MIP Old Timer

Hi Oblong,
This power that AA gives us is real. It works!!! I got well despite my self. There was so much pressure from all sides for me to go back to drinking. I came to AA because I wanted to stop. My wife and my employer were not interested whether I was drunk or sober. They did not understand the disease of alcoholism. Most people that knew me did not believe I was an alcoholic. So my rock bottom did not seem bad.
Therefore I had to study the AA book more intensely and rely upon my sponsors to stay sober. Today having studied the AA book and having understood the illness of alcoholism, my family have seen the real person, Gonee. That is why alcohol is described as cunning, baffling and powerful. It baffles the families and doctors of so called high bottom drunks. This makes alcoholism one of the most deadliest diseases, because it hides under a veneer of social ideals. If the sufferer does not diagnose themselves and seek help themselves, chances are they will die from this illness, drunk or dry, does not matter. I would have definitely, if I did not choose recovery with the intensity of all the resources available at my disposal.
So if you choose to work the steps, you will be amazed how God will work for you. These bad days will pass and you will be able to use the experience later on to help some other newcomer.