Last night I had some of those crazy dreams I have had before when I tried to get sober. The first was a horrible drinking dream. I woke up and felt that awful intense shame and fear and then sweet relief when I realized it wasn't real and there I was in my bed completely sober! It was such a strange intense feeling, and I actually said a little something (I hesitate to use the word prayer!): keep me sober, keep me sober, please keep me sober.
After I fell back asleep, I had a dream in which my brother was using (he is an alcoholic and drug addict, currently working the program). And so it goes again: please keep him sober.
I had something similar to that happen a few mornings ago. I woke up and couldn't remember what I did right before bed and had a moment of panic. I guess it was a split second of thinking I must have got black out drunk. And then the relief when I remembered that I had definitely NOT gotten drunk.
