..........oh man free at last! I've been to a meeting and then round to a brother's for a cup of tea and a chat. While there we were talking about anti depressant meds - he's been prescribed the same stuff I was on up to 3 years ago.

Then I remembered I still had some other stuff (10mg Diazepam) that I'd had in the first aid kit since mid february 2006, before I stopped drinking. I told him this and he asked so why are you hanging on to them? I had no immediate answer but after a while I realised I was hanging onto them 'just in case.' Drink in pill form!

I have just emptied them down the toilet, pissed on them and flushed them away.

And now I feel so free.