I like & can identify with Fear of Responsibility. Perfectionism is in there too. Fear of success even lol The list can go on hence why it's a simple program of action for complicated people. I hope you did get done what you've been looking forward to doing for quite some time now. I'm always afraid of the joy I'll have when it's done as if I'll have no excuse to be unhappy or sulk & my alcoholic ego loves to do that lol
Self-satisfaction of the lowest order if you're asking me to share about mine lol I am afraid of being effective & then possibly having to live up to or fail my own & possibly others expectations & I do love to put them up there in all my low self worth grandiosity lol I'm laughing at myself so much here because I have been in a right quandry, up & down with no emotional sobriety just lately & I think it could be because of all the things I leave undone.
I need to get back to yoga, my women's group & to stay close to my leading examples of women whose recovery I respect & love to see. I have a sponsee who is stalled on Step 8 but that's not my fault or doing & I can use the time she's not utilising me to concentrate on myself. With all my Higher Powered focus kept on what I need to do next for this moment. The glass is half full. I have many many blessings & I'm achieving everything I set out to do in my sobriety. I cannot complain.
Everything in front of me is a privilige because I have the gift to do it sober & not abandon it for a drink. I am blessed today & any procrastination on my part is an indulgence of ingratitude. I find it difficult to be grateful all the time but I feel much better just now even for shring this. Thank you for sharing a defect I can identify with & also sharing your surrender to its answer. Practicing opposites. Well Done, Glenn. Thank you for letting me share with you on this. It's most helpful to me too. Thank you & Godbless, Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
If you're anything like me you're sitting there hoping something better will come along so you won't have to do what you don't/didn't want to do! lol
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Rheinhold Niebuhr
It's something I used to do with great relish, getting new songs together for the karaoke and making up new song books. I never got paid for it, and in my eyes I didn't get enough recognition for it either. Now that I have my own business, it actually does me some good and not just somebody else. But now I don't get to do it for the self-importance, for the praise from people who would commiserate with me about how I was unappreciated by my employer - my only motive is that I want to help the business (my own and that of the person I still work for) and make people happy. And not have to hear the same damn songs sung over and over, so that's at least some motivation! But the powerful martyrdom motivation is no longer there. So I procrastinate because it's a lot of work. Last night I finally got started on it, ended up staying up all night and got a lot done. It's tempting to put off finishing it once again - I'm still pretty tired and there's so much more to do. But I think I know of a small chunk I can bite off tonight that will make some people pretty happy on Wednesday when I host next.
I think that I sometimes put things off until the last minute because I have liked the rush of adrenaline that comes with the mad dash to get it done in time. Hate to say it, but chaos can be like a drug.
