VIOLENT drinkers??? I am .i dont know why tho.. When I am sober i am the coolest person ever... Beer B****??? My firend tells me i need to go talk to one i am holding shit back .. not true i am not a rich person but I was blessed with great parents and family who support everything I do .. I wasent abuse as a child or anything like that...
Sorry just feel like typing, I guess..
-- Edited by charlie76 on Thursday 18th of February 2010 01:27:59 PM
Hey Charlie!No I was like the man from burbank drunk on "laugh in" I would just drink till I fell down,pretty mellow but definitely would get unconcious!!!Definety had partners though that would start it up,like walk up to someone,smack them and walk away and whoever was around would catch the heat.Got hit the head a few times ,no clue why,guess I was just there.I hope you are working a program now and if not stick around we'll talk!! peace......
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Hey Charlie, I was a happy drunk, like mikeF but I rarely passed out. It seemed the sugar in the alcohol just keep me up late or all night. I was that guy walking around, when everyone else was passed out, looking for half empty beers left by others.
-- Edited by StPeteDean on Thursday 18th of February 2010 05:39:51 PM
I was either happy, or sobbing, stumbling around tripping, or passed out. Never violent... Plenty of arguments with the ex but not violent....it would usually be me sobbing and threatening to kill myself.
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I am not violent all the time. I am good with beer i have fun and laugh , Bottles are my poison that's where shit goes dark. I never passed out or vomit ever.
I also broke so much crap and hurt myself a lot by accident. I broke the shower curtain trying to shower drunk and go out. I broke many lamps, plant pots, curtain rods...walked into doors...blah blah...friggin crazy. I distinctly recall being in a bar on one of my last drunks and they had like hangy plastic things to get to the outside bar and I got all caught up in them and couldn't figure out how to get through...Enuff of that drunkalog...wow that was some friggin insanity.
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I was always a happy drunk, until I passed out in the most unusual places, oh well as Mark stated, dont want to get into my own drunkalogue....
i was a pretty unhappy person, and drinking took all my sadness, my fears, my very low self esteem away and gave me a great sense of a happy self......, well until that stopped working......kept trying for years to get back to that placed where it worked so well ...and worked at it til it almost took me to the end of the line....
Charlie you first Posted Charlie is back, had assumed you had been here, and in Meetings before, then went back out.
Do you need some help finding a Meeting? or do you know how to go about finding one.....I sure would suggest that you go and soon......so let me, we know will you pease. and Welcome home dear!
Violent when drinking at times, smiling all the time drunk, does not matter, what does matter is that you can find a place to finally put that proverbial Plug in the Jug, get to a ton of Meetings, get a Sponsor, do the 90 meetings in 90 days, all the things that have proven to many here that the AA Program works, and you can stay sober too, oops, working the 12 Step of Recovery, left that out, that is the way up and out of this disease that WE ALL SHARE HERE with you, Charlie.
Hugs, Toni
-- Edited by Just Toni on Thursday 18th of February 2010 09:45:27 PM
My Dad was a violent drinker. He's in complete denial about it. I didn't think I was like that myself but drinking was a violence on my soul & my character. In the end I was in a destructive relationship where we had started to hit each other. It was ridiculous & I couldn't believe the depravity of the mess I was getting worse in taking me there too. I understand today that this is another example of my progressive powerlessness over alcohol, that I could not guarantee my behaviour no matter what my intentions. I never want to go back there. Thank you for reminding me.
Whether we were violent or not in our drinking is not a moral issue, Charlie. It is another aspect of the disease & another reason why I made the decision to stay away from that next first drink no matter what it takes, going to any lengths. For me it means working this program & immersing myself into a recovering way of life. Living a life of truth, love & Higher Power. I sincerely hope you will look into learning about the 12 steps. They are the best & most specific route to a life of honesty & hope I have come across. They train me in a disciplined & loving way how to live a life of love, for myself & for all whose lives I may have the privilege of touching.
Keep coming back :) Danielle x
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pinkchip , Toni and Danielle i really apriciate you taking time out of your day to reply to my post.. I enjoy reading it and the Advice i am given here.
Drinking only increased my violence Charlie...I was always a loose cannon. When I drank I was a loose cannon with one wheel off. Drinking made it worse because one of my struggles was always to appear being in control and the more I drank the more control I lost. It made me more angry trying to regain something I was loosing from doing something that was causing it. Got it?? Program and sobriety has worked marvelously for me...No guarantees or sainthood. Keep coming back.
Hey Charlie, When I was young,(High School) it was all about getting drunk and fighting. It was kind of a tough guy thing with the crowd I fell into. I grew out of it but I have to admit it was in my past.
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Charlie: Violent, no. Stupid, yes. Alcohol definitely contributed to some profoundly dumb behavior on my part. Waking up and dreading what I might have done or said the night before is yet another thing that I do not miss about drinking. I prefer waking up in the morning and simply feeling good. Regards.
I def. was violent on occasion. Drinking alone, I would blackout and then wakeup with bloody feet, hands,etc. MY last drunk, I got into an argument with my friend's wife and left his house which is in the middle of the country, like 2 hours away from my town- suddenly I was driving and I didn't know why, how, or where I was. I literally drove around for hours because I was too drunk to know where I was or find my way back into town...horrible!
How many times have you been drunk on a thursday, on a friday, on a saturday? Trust me charlie, you ain't missing nothing. That is part of our alcoholism talking...telling you that you are missing out. Don't listen. We all got to AA after tempting fate with years of overindulgence of booze. Compared to normal drinkers, we have drank our share and been to bars etc usually enough times to make up for not doing it anymore. Try adopting "been there, done that" as a line of thought. Try something new this weekend...meetings and maybe even fellowship. If you stay home and just think about not drinking it will be 20 times harder.
Just think of the things you can do if you stay sober...go to the movies, go to a park, go to the zoo...wake up early and go to church if you want.... It's not just about losing here...it's gaining freedom whereas before you HAD to drink.
-- Edited by pinkchip on Saturday 20th of February 2010 05:43:25 AM
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I was more violent & irritable when I wasn't drinking. Like a ticking time bomb. I treated my ex husband & kids like crap screaming & throwing tantrums. They were scared to even look my way when I didn't have a drink. Much like Toni I had low self asteem, fears, etc. When I drank I could leave all that behind & seem somewhat happy, sociable, & at ease. Sometimes I wish I could have that feeling of ease, happiness, & fearlessness without the harsh consequences of drinking. Occassionally I miss that false sense of security I had when I had a bottle by my side. But, I'm learning one day at a time how to get that all back without a drink. Some days it's harder than others when I'm really stressed or feeling down that evil thought that a drink will make me feel better rears it's ugly head. It's not a great day every day but most days it is!:)
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All of us here at MIP and in AA at large, drank in different ways. What is the same is that we could not control our drinking, could not stop even if we had wanted to. Because of this commonality we all understand exactly where you are at. Everyone hears their own story when others share theirs, if they listen hard.
I was a violent drinker SOMETIMES - at other times I was a comic, at other times very depressed and maudlin (accompanied by appropriate music - Leonard Cohen was great 'music to slit your throat to') Other times I was paranoid, sometimes friendly, other times I would stab you in the back as soon as look at you.
THIS is mostly why I had to do something about my drinking, there was neither rhyme nor reason in it, when it got to the point where I never knew what kind of drinker I would be, it was time to do something. I am fortunate that I managed to stop before I did something for which I could have been thrown in jail for a number of years.
The best feeling ever is going into jails with AA meetings, and realising that by the Grace of God and this fellowship, I was walking out a free woman. I have seen many prisoners who woke in a prison cell and only knew that they had killed someone in a blackout by reading the charge sheet. SCAREY!!!!
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