Hi there? I'm Sarah & I'm a grumpy but V grateful alcoholic! I've been really active in AA recently and feel great on the one hand, but a bit dazed and unmotivated on the other - I've an almost 18 year old dog who one minute looks like she's about to give in and let god then the next time I come home from Uni or wherever, she's leapin' about like a flippin young un!? Then there's mi Dad in hospital again for a pacemaker fitted only a week before my mum and him are booked to go to Australia for 4 weeks - which they've had to cancel twice before in the last 3 years due to Dad having heart surgery finally last year! Oh, don't get me wrong, the Op went well and I'm extremely grateful for all the 'executive' problems I am fortunate enough to be alive to be having!
Just for today though, I am finding conscious surrender a bit of a 'ball-ache' (so-to-speak!)
Anyone got any pearls of AA experience here?
This is my first time ever on a forum & don't really know what happens but hey, nothing ventured, nothing gained as they say!
Actually, I feel a bit 'lighter' already having typed the crap out my ed!!! Here goes!
Nobody ever said that all your days would be great! Just like anyone else we all have our bad days. It's what we do with them that makes a difference. Go talk to another alcoholic or call on someone you trust in the AA program. Sometimes you don't even have to tell them you're having a bad day. Just talking about something besides yourself sometimes helps. I found this website when I was having a bad day & talked to a few on here & stayed sober. It's not always easy but you can do it. The choice is yours. I can't stop someone from getting all aggravated & depressed & keep them from drinking. But, the point is you don't have to!!!
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Rheinhold Niebuhr
Hello and welcome to the family!! yes I kind of look at it as we have 'DAYS" and what happens and how we react make them good or bad for us..Obviously some will definitely be more trying than others but practising the spiritual principles of the program in all situations can put another outlook on each day..Glad that you stopped in and working the program actively,.membership(in anything) usually implies action and action can lead you to serenity!!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Welcome, what goes on here is just what you put in your Post. Bullseye my friend.
You made me think of one of the little Emoticons to the left of this response....
Love how you put it, Executive problems, you reminded me of a great friend that used to close every share with "All my problems are Gold Plated"....Loved that one too.
Sounds like you are going through some "If your ass falls off, you dont drink!" times.
And if you are active in Alcoholics Anonymous, going to meetings, sharing all these hard times, it is the coping skills that we all share when life is throwing us a ton of lemons.
Do you have a sponsor, someone to confide in, and working the Steps with.....Powerlessness applies to everything, as you know, you are walking right through the middle of it.
I hope so much that you will stay here, and let us know how you are doing....
Hope life calms down a little, and that your family and dog are better....personally find that when I am overwhelmed, Pray works wonders !
Glad you joined our little family here.
A Big Hug, Toni
-- Edited by Just Toni on Tuesday 16th of February 2010 03:24:10 PM
Oh wow! Thanks so much for taking the time to help - I really appreciate it! This site is a fantastic invention if ever I saw one! (ha ha!)
I've been to my home meeting & god sent me a newcomer, spoken to an AA who couldn't make it & passed on the link to register here herself & then read your generous replies & funnily enough.... I feel much much happier, grateful and settled. that 'good' tired when ya not totally shattered but ya won't take any rocking!!
I never cease to be amazed by the ways in which this program 'works' me if I just 'keep goin' back' and do what's suggested!
Anyway, that's another sober day & 3minutes success!
Good Night & Godbless my friends, Thanks for being you,
I am fortunate to have a really great, no-nonsense sponsor who has played a huge part in my recovery so far. I'm going through 6&7 again, after recently doing a particularly emotional third step 4&5.
I genuinely don't feel any stress about 'doing' the steps cos I've begun to experience the rewards of doing this program and know how i feel - (but can't describe it with words so won't try) and I like it! So worth any pain is spiritual growth as I've come to know in AA!
talk them out, share on them, pray on them and step them out.
the good thing is you see them and if you see them you can do something about them. as you will have heard in meetings, saying them out loud and writing about them makes them real and right sized.
See you at a meeting sometime, BikerBill (aka Santa, apparantly)
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
When I get all wrapped up in my stuff/problems/issues . It is high time for me to sit down, make a gratitude list, and then concentrate on finding another alcoholic to work with.
If I cant find the alcoholic, then maybe I can find something constructive to do for my family or maybe even a total stranger . Wont know if I dont start searching .....
Ha ha! I like that 'mental health day'! I think I'm having one tomorrow - chill out with duvet on settee, movie-marathon & tons of food my dentist doesn't approve of!!! Had a good day today & Had a gorgeous Cawthorne meat & tatie pie with cabbage and mash at my mum's (who rocks, by t' way!). I love that they WANT to spend time with me since I got sober! For that I'm soooo grateful!
Good for you. Some times we're just discontent and we don't know it. Consequently we'll look outside of ourselves for the source and it's so easy to find some fault somewhere. You know that when we're in the right space, it doesn't matter what anyone else is doing. Find that space, be good to yourself.
-- Edited by StPeteDean on Wednesday 17th of February 2010 05:07:49 PM
