Hello !!! Once the booze and dope was removed my emotions started to show up. Hidden emotions. I started crying. Let me tell you I cried EVERYEHERE. At the check out line in a store. Driving my car. And here I thought I was some tough guy, what is this bawling crap. I could not shut it off. Then I read somewhere about" Laughing all of your laughter and crying all of your tears to find LOVE. " It got way easier to cry and laugh.
I love crying. It's such a release for me & is always healing. I remember in the past I could never cry enough tears & it never got better. At three months sober I bawled all the way through a meeting grieving for all my years wasted feeling sorry for myself & I let go of those old feelings & hurt. No more did I have to suffer alone. No more was I crying for its own sake. I realised in AA that all my tears can heal me now & they soon turn to joy & gratitude. Yes, I do love crying & I love to see such surrender in others when they're letting go too. Such love & compassion. Love & Life is everything. Thanks for sharing your healing tears of Joy, Toad :) Danielle x
-- Edited by Sobrietyspell on Saturday 14th of November 2009 12:18:04 PM
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Certain songs got to me back then (still do). Feelings are a package deal, gotta take the good with the bad. Good news is that we begin to experience joy and happiness. We can begin to distinguish the difference between pleasure and happiness.
Tears are wonderful, Toad! I always feel so much better after a good cry. Cindi Lauper's Time After Time always gets me. Yeah, I'm a sap for that '80s crap.
Weird but I love to see a man cry. It really shows character and fearlessness. Me, I cry and get weepy about just about everything; a happy event, a sad event. I think sometimes the tears are like washing away emotions that I can't handle. I get the same relief from a good laugh. I love to laugh as much as I love to cry. I get the same release.
