What a gift I received today ! It was so lovely to see my son today. I was able to hold him, hug him and give him a kiss. It felt so good to have him in my arms. We talked and played in the park even though it was a chilly 7 deg. Celsius. We Canucks are a hardy lot, EH ?
Parting with him did not bring sadness but hope. Hope in renewal, and giving myself to him. The gift I received was a patch. For the longest time I had a hole. I thought that hole could be filled with a relationship with a woman. I set out to fill that hole with meaningless relations on all levels, always looking for the right one, and never feeling quite fulfilled. Whatever good I did have leaked out, by my own actions. And I felt even worse than before. Giving the gift of myself to him today I was able to see where the hole was, and it was clearly defined as to how to fix the hole. I told ***** that I wanted to be a part of his life, and he said I always was, with tears in his eyes. The hole has a very thin patch on it now. It is up to me to strengthen our bond so the patch can adhere. That in itself makes the rest of it a little easier to bear. I am so fortunate to have been given this gift today, and it surely beats any material possession I lost or hoped to gain back, because it was given to me by my son. The focus should be on my son, not on myself. I am fortunate my HP revealed that to me.
At our meeting last Saturday I heard an old timer say that 'God answers questions in 3 ways. Yes, No, and wait a while.' I had a problem with the 'wait a while' for it is never clearly defined, but oh man was it worth it !
Thank you for all your support Scotty
P.S. And I am on Step 9 now, but my sponsor made me go back and do step 4. A caring, firm hand in recovery and support.
-- Edited by mstrmsn66 on Monday 12th of October 2009 03:44:34 PM
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Aloha Scotty...I am happy with you. You get from HP what you deserve and you are blessed because you deserve. Take care of yourself first. If you don't have that you have nothing. Stay sober and within your HP and all that is good will come back.
Wonderful news Scotty !! Good for you . I have also heard that God is never in a hurry, but He is always on time.
I recently was given a gift myself ....
A gal that I have been sponsoring for about 2 yrs was able to get 3 of her 6 kids back in her home. As a result of staying clean and sober, doing the right thing, praying, helping others, staying involved in service work in AA, meeting the court/child care systems requirements, she was given her kids back. I was in court with her when the Judge awarded her her rights returned. It was awesome.
I have to remember that miracles do happen. I must never give up hope no matter how tuff it might seem or whatever circumstance I may be facing. When I rely on God to help me, I do best.
Again, congratulations. You are most definately growing
Such an awesome heart warming story about the love that is shared my the two of you, in the Big picture, that is all that ever matters, right.
Like all the real troubles you have seen in the last 6 months came to an end, with this beautiful fuition of what really really matters to you, in you heart, thank you so much for sharing this.
Congrats, Scott. I love the expression that God's delays aren't God's denials. Tis a favourite of mine & one I first heard in the rooms. Really pleased for you. Goodliuck with your amends. The promises are looming ;) God's Love, Danielle x
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