Alcoholics Anonymous - Fourth Edition Chapter 9 - The Family Afterwards
Henry Ford once made a wise remark to the effect that experience is the thing of supreme value is life. That is true only if one is willing to turn the past to good account. We grow by our willingness to face and rectify errors and convert them into assets. The alcoholics past thus becomes the principal asset of the family and frequently it is almost the only one!
I am feeling a bit edgy towards getting back into action as far as my amends are concerned. I need guidance definately & time with a sponsor who is willing to help me make some decisions on how. I have been afraid uptil now about acting on self-will & not coming from the right place but I am frustrated right now that I haven't been told more what to do. I feel I have learned alot about the program & I am now taking someone else through the steps in a solid orderly fashion. I wasn't given this kind of direction & on some level I am feeling resentful for not having had this help perfectly.
I have had an effective recovery regardless. It is my perfectionism playing up that I haven't done it all 'a certain way' I will laugh about this now & remember my gratitude for where I am & what I HAVE achieved with God's help of course.. Nevertheless, I feel a new spurt of amends coming on & will be seeing my sponsor on Thursday to get on with it. I will draw up a list for me to crack on with. Thanks for the nudge, Wagon. Love & prayers, Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!