Coming back down to Earth

Ms London · Veteran Member

Coming back down to Earth

turninggrey · MIP Old Timer

Hey Ms. London.
It is funny how we can convince ourselves that its OK "in moderation." It always ends the same with "over moderation". I broke a 20+ year run the same way. Its not the amount of time that you stayed sober (because we do this one day at a time) Today is a new day. Tomorrow is the same. The days will build up again. This time enjoy the days a little more. Each day try and find the blessing in the day. That makes the "day" in "one day at a time" more special.

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

I hate disappointment. That's why I don't want to try. So many before us. I still might 1day as tis the nature of our illness. It's written about in the Big Book & I believe it. Thank you for your testament also, Ms. L. Back on in your Sobriety Saddle & ride high once more. What was it you wanted to exchange to risk taking that first drink again? Some lacking in satisfaction for sobriety? Get in deep with the fellowship, steps & service. You need never take a drink again 1Day@aTime & just for today. Remembering my bottom keeps me fresh & grateful for today. I don't want to go there again. Tell your story as often as you can. You'll get distance. There is a life beyond your wildest on offer here. If you want it & will work for it. It is worth it. Keep on coming back, Danielle x

Garrett w · Newbie

your not the only one..I to am guilty of thinking i can manage my life by myself..this has inevitably lead me to relapse. It got to the point of "if i can manage my own life then what the hell do i need AA or a higher power for?". I also get to thinking i can manage my drinking, even though i have succeeded in drinking moderately many times its all just a matter of luck. I pretty much just roll the dice on if im going to go on a horrible spell from one drink that could lead to many more. I'm glad to have found a great AA forum, I think ill keep coming back ;)

Reffner · Senior Member

Isn't it funny how our disease constantly tries to deceive us into thinking that we gain back control after a little time sober? I too am guilty of relapse due to thinking that "I got this thing" What changed it all for me is coming to honestly believe that 1 drink is too many, and a thousand is never enough. I don't like alcohol, and never really did, so why would I want to become a casual drinker? I now know that I'll never really have this disease beat, but my HP does, so I give it to him and surrender my will and life to him daily (many times each day actually). The more I let go of things, the better things work out for me. I don't have control, and I don't want it either. It's always good to hear some new stories and see some new faces here. Keep coming back, there is tremendous help and wisdom here.

Brian

Mike B. · MIP Old Timer

Ms. London,
Your not a loser or a broken record, your an alcoholic. We do things like that...
I relapsed for 3 years, because I wanted to drink more than I wanted to stay sober. I'd convince myself that I could drink like a normal person. Before to long I'd be right back at it harder than ever. It's not until alcoholic really kicked my ass that I surrender and became willing to change and have a new life. I'm glad I did because life today is great and I really enjoy AA and the rewards I get from the program. Keep coming back and help us stay sober.

Just Toni · MIP Old Timer

Good Morning M.L.

Your last words in your Post, that you feel like a loser, and have a broken record.

Don't understand that broken record part,    , cause the way I learned this Program is the Record is 24 hours. So if you got up earlier than me today, and are sober, then you have longer sobriety that I do, today, in this ONE DAY at a TIME Program.

Anytime we have a relapse of any kind, we feel so demoralized, but let that in, and then breath it OUT, and stay in this day, sober. Today is all we have Mr. London, love your sign in name.

I am so very happy your are here, and that you will keep coming back and sharing with us. 4 months was a good amount of time, and that was great, but in early Recovery, the disease of Alcoholism can be tricky, and maybe reading up on relapse prevention might help.

Relapse is a symptom of the disease, that is a given, but there are clues for you to watch out for, and that saying of "the drink IS the last part of the Slip". I had to really get that one down, for I had a long running history of Relapse.

Personally, I compare my disease to any other life threatening Disease, say I had life threatening "xyz" disease, that require daily maintenance treatments, and what it would mean if I decided, heck, think I will just stop the treatment, and go on without it.

But that is just me, and how I view this Disease.
And we share this disease and the treatment is first to put that Plug in the Jug, using a Sledgehammer, and then going to some meetings, getting a sponsor, and beginning the 12 Steps that are the way up and out of the threatening part of the Disease. We are never free of that boogie man, looking over our shoulders, but if we are facing forward, in God's Sunlight, and walking forward, we do not need to be fearful with the Protection of our Higher Power, that personally I choose to call God.

So, just for today, I will say toodle lue, and hope to see you soon. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

Toni

OOOPSY!!!!! Did not see that it was Ms. as opposed to
Mr. well there is no gender to this disease, but sorry for the oversight.  Reading too early in the morning, never a good idea!

-- Edited by Just Toni on Monday 21st of September 2009 10:52:06 AM