I am doing well. I have gone to another meeting and it is really quite special to have this experience. My initial feeling is that I dont trust these people, you know like I think maybe they are just cons and are having a good laugh at my emotional turmoil.
I obviously enjoy having people to talk to though, so I keep going back. I read a slogan yesterday that went: Just get your body there and your mind will follow! I am hoping that it is going to work for me. I am sure like anything, trust is earned.
I still think about drinking but then I remind myself that I am worth more than that - that putting that bottle or glass to my mouth is like drinking poison and it does not matter what other people can drink quite happily, all that matters is that when I drink strange things start happening to my imagination and my body and that sets off the resentment and the anger and the misery and the fool that I become when drinking. I want to be sober because I am worth it to myself and to my family. I am worth much more sober than drunk.
Thanks for letting us know how you're doing. I've been thinking about you...glad you're going to meetings. The hardest part was letting other people into my life,taking off the mask that I had worn for so long.
"putting that bottle or glass to my mouth is like drinking poison" I need to remember that too! When one hasn't had a drink for a while it's good to keep it green... and that statement sums it up very nicely. Alcohol = poison = death to this alcoholic.
