It has been a while, and for that while I thought Recovery was going great, for you.
Have you been going at all to any meetings??? Did you ever find a Sponsor.
Hope this Post means you are here ready to start over to . Praying that for you.
So very happy to see you here. That is really what I wanted to say.
Welcome Home, and hope and Pray, that this time, the gift of desperation will lead you to wanting... more than a bottle of?....., A BETTER LIFE, for yourself.
AA and the 12 Steps are very simply the WAY OUT of this Disease we share, we ALL WANT that better life for YOU. You can rest in the first half of the 1st Step for a long time, and even simpler than Shampoo instructions, if that is possible. just acknowledging your own Powerlessness over Alcohol.... Then take that thought and share it at a Meeting.
Lots of Love being sent with this message. YOU have been missed a lot.
When I read you brief post, I thought oh, the alcohol is doing all the talking....now.
Big Hugs, Toni
-- Edited by toni baloney on Wednesday 22nd of July 2009 03:12:42 PM
Tipsy, I too hope you get out of the crappy feeling you are in right now, and get back on your feet. As long as we have today, we have a chance. Glad you came back to us.
Joni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
Oh I'll be alright, I'm just in awe of my unstoppable determination to mess up my life. If I put as much effort and resources into something even remotely positive as I do into being a reckless, binge drinking, loudmouth, lout I'm sure I would be a zillionaire. Right now I'd settle for employed :)
Fortunately I have a dog and dogs love you no matter how much of a jerk you are. Seriously, if scientists could put a dogs brain inside a woman guys like me would never cheat. Of course it would be kind of gross when she scooted across the living room rug on her rump anytime it got itchy...but I'd willing to live with it.
LOL........ put a dog's brain inside a woman??? I don't know if we'd like to lay on the floor all the time, be whacked with a newspaper when we got out of line, or be compelled to go get kitty poop out of the littler box for a late night treat!!
Tip, you still got your sense of humor. Put it to good use!!
Sorry to hear about the unemployment thingy (there's a lot of that going on here in the states right about now). But jobs come and go, at least you still have your freedom and your life.
Welcome back and don't go running off like that again!
Joni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
TM, I was just thinking about you (or the lack there of) yesterday. My psychic ability knows no bounds. I've even connecting with mythical internet people in foreign countries.
Welcome Tipsy ... although i'm new here, it sounds as though i should say "Welcome Back" ... but if i weren't here when you were here before i were here then i can't say "Welcome Back" about your being back here.
Now, excuse me ... my rump itches and the carpet calls.
Well I'm glad your back....minus the dog/women joke. LoL. Personally I feel that if a good man had a heart, he's never cheat in the first place. But the same goes for women.
Anyways, get back into the flow at all costs. You know how to do it, and fairly well it seemed in the past. So, you have everything you need to do it again. Plus, a slip up to add to the importance of your sobriety. Just try again.
Aloha Tipsy...welcome back. I learned that being humble was being teachable and being able to not take myself so seriously. You throw darts at yourself real good ceptin under the circumstances. There is a way to get and stay sober and you got to turn the teaching over to someone who knows how to do that.
Your post reminded me of a story I just read in the June 2008 edition of the AA Grapevine; the AA monthly magazine. It's on page 21, Beginners Meeting... A Second Round. You have to go to a meeting and ask the literature person for the back editions. You might as well take copies from this month back to last June. You could read in between meeting and before or instead of drinks.
LOL...I've had some real good dogs but none so good...
That got a good hearty laugh, no matter what we have got to just keep laughing at life............
Hey Tips, behind those good laughs, what's going on behind them??
Why not get back on that provebial horse you were on when Recovery was kicking in strong. What Happened??? What knocked you off that horse, lets see, maybe.... a resentment? I do recall your Post about being so full of anger, remember that???? did that take you to.........drinking????
Considering the levels of crassness that occur in long-term gay relationships... That would be both partners farting all the time, scratching their nuts and smelling their fingers, etc... A female dragging her ass across the floor might be a welcome change. Perhaps I will reconsider my ASSumptions about my sexuality. Not..but I figured I was due for a good joke myself.
In all seriousness, go to meetings and get sober tipsy. That clever sense of humor can only improve as your brain regenerates. Plus, I did see a period when the program was working on here for you...Dont make us refer back to previous posts showing rigourous honesty, enlightenment, and self-improvement! I recall one when you were a "quitting machine" and were feeling pretty damned good about it. Not saying that to bring you down in any way, just reminding you it was working in case you forgot. That can happen again and it can happen for keeps if you want it enough.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
What knocked you off that horse, lets see, maybe.... a resentment? I do recall your Post about being so full of anger, remember that???? did that take you to.........drinking????
Awe come on now, tell us......Please
Toni
I wish it was something as interesting as a resentment but unfortunately it's just boring old forgetfulness. A little time goes buy and I forget the misery and that I'm a "problem drinker" and before I know it I'm a stumblebumpisspot again.
Oh well, what can I say...at least I'm consistent.
