The very best hope is that he contacted your PO and report it. No you were not driving for the moment and yes you were not switching this time. You getting any more awake and aware about why we're here and you've come to join us? Your DUI is a matter of record. I bet they could've/would've picked it up here in Hilo. In hindsight? He might have saved some one elses butt and yours at the same time. I've worked the DUI class rooms as a part of service in recovery. Everyone in the rooms know that inspite of their condition they can leave and go purchase and then get loaded...everyone!! They got a problem and still feel they are immortal. That is how I use to do it until it no longer worked and yes I drove under the influence and came close to taking lives when I did it. If this information doesn't help you look at your drinking and only your bad fortune. Keep a copy of it and hand it to someone else in your DUI class. I won't mind.
I'm confussed...Anyway a condition of My probation (everytime) was that I report contact with law enforcement. By drinking, you were probally violating, as well as by not being up front with your PO. IF he finds out he can have a judge revoke your probation and have you serve the remaining sentence...At least that is what The judges and PO's always told me.
A bigger question is why are you STILL drinking AND drinking and driving? You want to play "the keys weren't in the ignition" game? OK at the least you are still public intox, still a violation of probation.
What kind of classes are you gong to where they teach you: if caught throw keys in the floor?? Maybe a better class would teah you not to drink and drive, or better yet don't drink.
I'm not sure if this is what you really want to talk about. When I'm doing something I'm not supposed to do, I know it and know all the possible consequences. When I do ask, I'm hoping someone will have a magical fix to my poor judgment and that hasn't happened yet.
If you have a desire to stop drinking and would like some help, you're in one of the right places. Evaluations and counseling are great, but until I got honest with myself and others nothing changed. What's that saying? "If I keep doing what I've always done, I'll keep getting what I've always gotten."
We are here ready to help you and in turn you will be helping us.
Hope you'll give us a chance if thats what you're here for.
Went back and read all your posts, and the court stuff and losing your license, did not hear too much about AA, other than to say you wish you had your car so you could go to AA. I read a lot of conflict in your Post.
Hope your will take the time to read the following:
When my Niece graduated from Bachich High School, in Marin County, CA, many years ago, there was this horrific accident that had happened the week before this happy day was to arrive. One of my Niece's good friends, she and six of her fellow pre-graduates were out, all cramed into a small car, were going to a Graduation party, not too far from their homes, on small road, and in one flash, all seven of these young wonderful children were killed instantly by an oncoming car, a Drunk Driver.
The Graduation on a glorious sunny day, out in the football field of this school, felt much more like I was attending a funeral. And really I was. Every parent of each of the children got up and talked about their child and the future they would never know. What they did not speak about was how in this one split second/ crash, all of their lives were forever torn apart.
This group of families, specifically their Moms, began a small support group of woman across the country and they formed an organization called M.A.D.D. (Mothers Against Drunk Drivers). and with the very fortunate knowledge of two woman in their own neighborhoods, woman that were new to the Political World, Barbara Boxer, now Senator Barbara Boxer of California, and Nanci Polosi, Now the Speaker of the House for the Democratic Party. I often wonder, without their help, how far their new organization would have gone. So off they went to Washington, these 7 mothers, over and over again, relentless in their efforts. And they are personal responsible for all the seeds that were planted, and why there are now very tough laws in all the Courts, for Drinking when under the influence of Alcohol.
Dont know if you have children, but try to close your eyes, imagine raising wonderful children, supporting them through everything in their lives, and to anticipate them going off to College to start their own lives, and what it would feel like on the inside to have to go through the senseless death of your child, because someone just would not simply ask a friend to drive him home. A very small act, right, but no, chose instead to just say Screw it, I'll be fine, and to kill 7 innocent children on a drive home. I always Pray for these families, and hope that by simply taking the time, and being so forceful in their endevors, that their own lives, destroyed forever, can somehow have a little peace of mind to what would and has destroyed families all across the country.
Believe me, I am not being self righteous here, I am a recovery drunk, it could have been me. I used to say, that I never drove a car while drinking, until I realized, yes, but not that I could remember, driving in a blackout.
We here, use the words Grace of God, a lot, and to this above story, I can only say, There, but for the Grace of God, go I.
You have to REALLY want recovery, but why not just stay for a while, check in once in a while to see that living without Alcohol is possible, and if you ever check out the AA meetings, you will see that it is not only just possible, but we live wonderful lives, we only do this one day at a time, and only with God's Help.
Hope that we will see you again.
Toni
And to something I read in your Posts, that self centerness, it being only about YOU, not the consequences, is also, just a symptom of this deadly Disease.... All active alcoholics have the same highly over inflated egoistic opinion of themselves....just my opinion
-- Edited by toni baloney on Tuesday 7th of July 2009 06:13:48 PM
