Sorry I have not visited for a while. The thing is I have been diong some serious contemplating about my life and how I want to go forward. I managed to get the courage to call a contact here. She was so helpful, unjudgemental and shared with me things about her life that sounded like she was actually referring to my life.
Anyway I got to a meeting and it was such a huge relief. Not what I expected , well kinda, very casual and no airs and graces about it. Just what I needed real people sorting through real character defects just like me.
I will write again soon. It is 7am here time for the school run.