my wife is seeing the doctor to find out why she's bleeding, my daughter has been offered a job as a assisstant tour manager on a european tour with a singer songwriter, which means throwing up a steady well paid job, work has completely dropped through the floor and I left my favourite mug at the meeting last night..................and breathe.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
Update on my wife - the doctor's opinion is it could be this or it could be that - more tests are needed - tests are ordered at the hospital but there's a 2 week wait - so i think that it's not likely to be life threatening. (from other experience, my best mate found a lump in his testicle, went to the doctor on Monday, had the testicle removed on the tuesday - when it's likely to be life threatening, they don't muck about over here.)
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
Well the good news is that you aren't sitting in a house that is on fire. Sounds like you are living the emotions right now, for events that haven't occurred yet. I too, do that but when I see someone else doing it, it becomes more obvious for some weird reason. Just sayin....
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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
Yup, one day at a time, it's not for today. Someone told me that writing your thoughts, resentments and fears out is a good way to disarm them. That seems to be what i'm doing here.
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It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you got. BB
I've just gone thru similar events here, oceans apart. My wife has/is going thru the same thing and has gone thru op surgery. My only task like hers in part "trust others and God" and stay in support of her needs which I have learned to be able to do along with my own responsibilities and love her unconditionally. Some times her worries become fears and her fears become weight. She needs to hang with the doctors and I get to sit out in left field or where ever because I haven't got one clue on how to solve a situation I know very very little about. "Trust God" more.
My elder children and their children are out living their own lives in there own way making decisions guided by their own experiences, awareness and reactions. As with my wife?...I stay out of the way and place myself in position of sharing my own experiences, strengths and hopes should they inquire. Just like program and then "Trust God". This works well with me cause I need space and time to clean my own house sometime or other and continue with my recovery while helping others do the same.
Thinking of you and your wife, your hp will see it through... just keep the 'how' in motion, honesty, openmind, and willingness to have faith. hang on, dear. and hugs and prayers.
