Welcome to my quiet living room here tonight. It is evening and time to get calm, relax, clear the mind. I am aware of my own peace tonight, and I want to share it with you. Pajamas on, sitting in the recliner, logging on to MIP in the quiet, dog lying on the floor next to me, and seeing what miracles you all are for spending another day sober.
I never ever thought I could experience precious quiet moments like this. With nothing on my mind, just a calm, that needs no alcohol or substances to make it any better. It is perfect, this evening, clean and sober, and wanting nothing. Looking for NO excitement, or neediness, or attention, or regrets. Life is full of challenges and strife every day. But to realize that you can just sit and BE, and the thought of a drink a billion miles behind you (dependent on a daily reprieve, of course)...... this is what I got sober for. And I never even KNEW in the beginning, what I would get from sobriety, how much "better" it WOULD be inside my head and heart and soul, I never even knew what I should "want" out of recovery. I simply knew it would save my life, that's all. Boy, did I ever get a bargain. Then time and energy taken to go through the early days of recovery, and the time and energy to maintain sobriety and move every closer to my Higher Power, it pays off 1,000-fold.
I was always told that if I stayed sober, then whatever my greatest wishes were in life, would pale in comparison to what I would get out of being sober. That if I achieved my wildest dreams, I would be selling myself short, for God has even MORE in store than I can comprehend.
So I join you tonight, as you join me, in receiving the benefits of sanity and peace, hands open wide to receive it. What a blessed and powerful thing we have, right in our hands, this recovery.
Good night, sleep well, and God Bless.
With love and hugs, Joni
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
