I was taking the dog for a walk with a friend on Sunday....long story short, I fell, and gashed my knee pretty badly and was a bit shook up! Came home, and my neighbor, who is an MD, looked at it and said- "you need stitches!" and offered to take me to his office and fix me up (7 stitches worth, turns out). Now that was something to be grateful for all by itself...but then I realised that I have had several falls- broken rib, broken ankle, a cut on my face...BUT this was my first injury of that sort that had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with alcohol.....
I had weird emotional flashbacks to the guilt of injuring myself while drunk....
Which gradually morphed into gratitude that this was a sober-sh*t- happens event...and how nice it was to let my friend and neighbor care for me.
BTW- the dogs ok too- I did NOT let go of the leash. Metaphor?
I thought some of you might appreciate my odd celebration.... Thanks for being here BG
-- Edited by beachgirl on Tuesday 12th of May 2009 05:59:55 AM
BG...your take on what happened is inspiring. It shows recovery working within you. These things happen to me a lot lately. I made the mistake of putting my cat on my head. She used to be so docile she would just sit there. Not so much now. She leaped off my head and gashed my forehead right above the eyebrow. I thought..."Oh great, everyone is going to think I relapsed." I used to have so many injuries from falling down and tripping. My nickname amongst "friends" was Stumblelina. Anyhow, I had similar feelings though...grateful I only injured myself doing something stupid sober lol. Lesson learned by me...my cat has a mind of her own...don't fuck with her lol.
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I think I'd have enjoyed that reminder myself as I can so often forget how it was, the waking up with inexplicable bruises and bumps on my head. I can be quite clumsy at times in sobriety so it's good to know I'm no longer causing myself these added harms. Being drunk now means to me that I would be in danger & that helps me stay grateful I'm sober too. Thanks for sharing your moment with me, Beachgirl :) Danielle x
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