Oh, that lovely character defect, procrastination. Amongst my most glaring defects. Whether related to making amends or not, my procrastination almost always is rooted in some fear. When I do what I'm supposed to do in spite of my wish to procrastinate, I am usually amazed that my fear turns out to be, as the 12 and 12says, just a "bogeyman," not based in any reality. Thanks for sharing this, Jane.
~ In AA, I've learned not to talk prudence while practicing evasion. ~
I love this! LOL I realised just recently that my avoiding, procrastinating, waiting was actually my self-centered fear striking again sneakily in the very heart of me & that truly deep down it was an enduring lack of faith in my Higher Power that no matter what comes of this Amend will be a valuable lesson in what's important for me to learn in grace & humility. It is also a form of control that I am unwilling to make my amend & then Let go in order to Let God. Wow! I needed to wake up to this one. Maybe it was right that I had to wait until it was revealed to me & I awakened some more. It is progress not perfection but as soon as I did awaken to this I prayed & received God's will for me to get on with it. I have written an amend to an old partner & have sought advice on its appropriateness in sending before I take these steps. Close members in the fellowship & my Sponsors are helping me. I can't wait to Step 9 it so that I can move on & see what else my Higher Power has in store for me :) So much to learn from & to grow. I love this life & this fellowship. Thanks for you here all sharing your sobriety with me too. Godblessings :) Danielle x
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