Ive been finding out the hard way that when one quits trying to force something, or control, or change, whatever it may be--throws up their hands in the air and just surrenders completely--and says Screw this--you handle whatever is meant to be --strange things happen.:)
Three months ago I accepted my marriage was over. Well--my Higher Power kinda took the reins and showed me that it wasnt.
To make a long story short-Ive flown to the coast twice already, and am going back for another 4 days in a couple of weeks. As each month goes by the time spent there will increase, and looking at the big picture, I will be moving down there in the future to be with my wife full time.
I still have a bussiness in Ontario--one girl in High school-and it looks as if the transition looks positive, and all ahead in full slow God mode.
Its taken five years of hell, including physical stuff to deal with and baggage from both our pasts--the 12 steps of AA, and a lot of pain, on both sides--They call it growth.
Those tunnels looked awfully dark some days. However--I do know that nomatter how bad things seem some days in our lives, as long as we dont pick up a drink, and just try to do our best, and keep on pluggin, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
This so called willingness to change--I fought tooth and nail some days, but realize today, it was a must--no ifs, ands, or buts.
I know what youve gone through from your sharing on here also. Gads Girl!! Dont know about you, but some days I just hafta look up and say THANKU, and its as simple as that.
But for the Grace Of God. You and everyone here, have a good day.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
Don't know if this makes any sense but sometimes my best understanding of God (or Divine Order, whatever I may be calling HP lately) is just a belief that things are going to be OK. That's big progress for me.