When I came into A.A., was I a desperate person? Did I have a soul-sickness? Was I so sick of myself and my way of living that I couldn't stand looking at myself in a mirror? Was I ready for A.A.? Was I ready to try anything that would help me to get sober and to get over my soul-sickness? Should I ever forget the condition I was in?
Meditation for the Day
In the new year, I will live one day at a time. I will make each day one of preparation for better things ahead. I will not dwell on the past or the future, only on the present. I will bury every fear of the future, all thoughts of unkindness and bitterness, all my dislikes, my resentments, my sense of failure, my disappointments in others and in myself, my gloom and my despondency. I will leave all these things buried and go forward, in this new year, into a new life.
Prayer for the Day
I pray that God will guide me one day at a time in the new year. I pray that for each day, God will supply the wisdom and the strength that I need.
Hazelden
(Let it be a God or Higher Power of your own understanding)
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
Yes, when I came to A.A. I was a desperate person. I wanted to quit drinking for years and found I could not, I didn't know how. I decided to quit trying and planned on dying, but it wouldn't come soon enough for me. I often ask God, "Please take me now!". That active alcoholic world was a lonely, painful world. The mirror was a place I could look at myself and see that what I though I was true. I spent a lot of time telling her what a waste of human flesh she was.
Today, I realize I was really ready for AA way before I got there. When I did finally get there, I was so amazed I wasn't drinking, I had to keep going back and try to figure out why I wasn't drinking. At that point I was a 24/7 drinker. I soon stopped trying to figure it out, because I kept hearing that to stay sober I needed to get a sponsor and work those Steps that were printed on a board hanging on the wall. (Fear) struck, because I really didn't want to drink again, so I got that sponsor and begged to work the Steps and quick!!!
If I stay in meetings and try to help the newcomer, I hope to never forget the condition I was in and so quickly could go back to if I don't do what I was taught.
I must try to live One Day at A Time and be willing to try and to do the only will I know, for sure, God has for me. "To stay sober, help the next suffer and do the next right thing"
