Wow, have not been awake at this time since my last drunk. I initially awoke iritated, having a couple of teenagers sleeping over in the living room making noise at this hour........ but I have to laugh, as I am SOBER (and so are they), and on vacation, so I can always take a nap later on today.
I will miss my stepsons when they go back home. As they grow older, our relationship changes.... they are coming to know me as a friend, someone they can confide in. They have never seen me drunk or high. What a real blessing.
When the thought of drink crosses my mind, I think about them, and what their life would be like with a drunken stepmother. And then I call my sponsor or head to a meeting. I stay sober for ME, but I do think of the impact my sobriety has upon those around me, and how awful it would be for them all, were I a mess like I used to be.
These kids have been through enough, with a divorce and them moving 1,000 miles away from their dad. I want to make things BETTER for them, not worse. They are so young, so impressionable. I thank God that I can be who I am supposed to be to them.... their SOBER stepmom, their friend, and an example. I could not fill any of these roles if I were not sober. I am going to miss them when they are gone again.
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joni- what a nice post! Im glad you have had a good holiday....you sure are setting the right example, which they may not understand now, but someday i think they might, to some degree..I wish you all the best.
Wow!! Joni is right!!! You are a great example to your kids and by staying sober it gives them a great foundation and example to follow!!! Glad you had a great holiday and got to spend time with your precious boys!!!!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
