Off to morning work and then my appointment this afternoon, to try and tackle the issues from depression. Just knowing I am on the right track in seeking help has brought some sunlight back into my life this week. And being "off" the antidepressant for several weeks now is creating in me a spirit of "waking up" right now. I am seeing some energy slowly return already, and am hoping that some behavioural modifications and talk therapy can help me possibly stay off anything for now.
I relaly needed meds there for awhile, but I have been feeling emotionally polluted for some time now, and in a fog.
But I will listen to this good doctor suggests, or why bother going, right?? Will check in and let you all know how it goes today.
Am taking this step with joy today, knowing that even our Big Book suggests that we sometimes need outside help. And I am already feeling liberated.
Toodles for now....
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
Yeah joni Hope things work out well and that you do take the suggestions presented to you!!!! Thinking maybe thats why I wont hit the doctors even though Im feeling sluggish,,,,know he will say...quit smoking and start to exercise!!!!! What do they know anyways!!!! lol Good luck!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
what a terrific appointment.... the psychiatrist and I talked for a full HOUR and a HALF..... and he reviewed tons and tons of reports from old episodes and psyche visits from years gone by, experiences I have had in my life that changed me (for the worst, in many cases), therapy I had gone thorugh for yearson end, etc.....
he feels I am basically setting myself up for yet another relapse, by just "letting myself" get so low I don't care anymore (deja vu) and "stirring up the pot" again by various means which I am sure youall can understand.
I am a sick puppy, and help is on the way, which should enable me to become more functional in my everyday life, less isolated, more apt to getout (meetings? more meetings, yes)... and i cannot get there through self-talk or anything else... I need what I need, and am going to follow his instructions.
Ran everything by my sponsor, and she said that very thing to me: " DO what is prescribed and leave it to GOD... follow instruction and TRUST thatyou are right where you are supposed to be, and ready to start getting better.
So here I go, another chapter in my journey, and I have high hopes. I hope to be able to sharesome of that healing wiht you soon, well, I guess I already have. The First Step to ANY problem is admitting youhave one, and then from there, surrendering and letting someone else take over.
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
Joni, yay! i'm happy for you that the appointment went so well. glad you are feeling energized and moving forward wishing you all the best.....i just know that your HP has something so special for you.
