I had another one last night : ( But, I tried remembering how bad it felt and how lucky I am to be sober. That helped a little bit, but I just can't believe how real they are and often they happen. But I believe yall....they will start to go away with time.
One thing that I have found so different while being sober is dating. It's much harder.....but in a good way. Of course I don't have as much confidence as I do after I've downed a pint before going out with someone , but it's so much more real, respectable, and enjoyable. I feel more like the young (though I did find my first gray hair a few days ago ) responsible adult that I need to be.
And about the gray hair. What the heck! I looked in the mirror before going to work and it was sticking straight out of my head. And I have long.....very dark hair. So when I say it stuck out. I mean STUCK out! But I didn't pull it....that hair belongs to me and I'm gonna own it baby! Plus I hear two might take its place. Ha Ha!
One of the fun things Ive discovered now that Im sober is that I actually have, or remember dreams now. I think this is the first time in my life I actually enjoy sleeping to have those wild, crazy dreams! I must have just passed out before! They will change eventually to non drinking dreams.
Grey hair....dont even bring that one up!!!! hahaThats another thing I "notice" now...my greys, wrinkles, love handles etc that I never noticed or cared about before! Opening our eyes is such a treat!! lol
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
I have them once in awhile too. They are so different though. My attitude when I wake up is one where I am recoiling now, instead of feeling geeked out and craving. cram, check out your reactions. See how they are different now....
I can't control what I am dreaming about. But I can finally control what I am doing with my waking hours. That is the real blessing. My disease can mess with me all it wants while I am asleep, but I don't pick up, so I send the disease right back to its smelly miserable cave!!
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~Your Higher Power has not given you a longing to do that which you have no ability to do.
, but it's so much more real, respectable, and enjoyable. I feel more like the young (though I did find my first gray hair a few days ago 
) responsible adult that I need to be.