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FindingFreedom


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I spent many years of my life living in the future, in fantasy.  I would tell myself, everything will be better when.I live I in a big city, instead of this dinky little island, when I make a $100,000, when I get married, when I stop using drugs, when I go to England, when, when when,Five years ago, I turned 40 and that birthday was a turning point in my life, I could no longer fool myself with the when fantasy because time had run out, I was 40, OMG!  How could time have pasted and these things havent happened, I HAVE GOT to change something..

 

First, it was my career.   I was over just making money for moneys sake.  I was tired of buying things.  My job was so un-fulfilling, boring, day after day, doing book-work, counting beans, making sure 30 boats were ready for rent.I had done it so long I could do it upside down, hung-over, backwards and not mess up..I wanted work that I felt passionate about, work that made a difference in the world, not just a job that was part of the capitalistic economic wheel, yawn..So, I told my siblings that I wanted to move on, do something on my own, and boy, did this rock the boat, boats.!  Literally, lol..

 

It took a lot of courage for me to make this step and at the time I wasnt even going to meetings, I was dry, angry and white-knuckling it.  Anyhooo, I sold my shares in the family business, took the money and moved to London.  Changes alright, Geeeeeeeezzzzzzzhad a slip after 5 weeks in London, its July 2003.

 

Big Jump ahead, March 2007, I returned to my AA home group here on the island, and have been going to meetings ever since.  I FINALLY GOT IT, the program, the miracle in progress idea, thank God, and every member of this fellowship!  Whew

 

At the moment I am currently un-employed, I have WAY too much time on my hands, but, guess what, I am listening, I am staying with my feelings, I am staying present, and God has good things for me today.  Thanks for letting me share.



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Dave Harm


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That's a beautiful post.  One I'm sure many can relate too.  I know I can.

I use to constantly think about "when, when, when," and through the program I finally accepted that "when, when, when" will happen in His time - not mine.

All I can do is enjoy the journey today...

Creating Dreams, from the nightmares of hell...

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jonijoni1


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Great post! Thank you so much for sharing!!! I have had many when's as well, and most of my whens have come true. But they did not come true until I had gotten sober... again. And yet, still, I fell off the water truck just over a year ago, when all my whens had already come true.

Now I am all out of whens, and sometimes I can be very dissatisfied with all that I am blessed with. You are right, spending money is not the road to peace. Neither is marriage, or moving, or a new car or anything else. I can still be restless, irritable and discontent.

God is good. And if I pick up, I can't stay in good contact with him. I have to take this time right now, around the holidays, to turn off the whens (because there aren't any more), and keep living in today.

Your post was great for me to read this morning. Onward and upward.

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Thanks for the post! Great reminder to me that life is happening today! May I make the best of it!
I remember when I first got sober and wasnt working. Dean reminded me that it was a great time to work on me! Boy was he right. I was right where I needed to be and hit alot of meetings!

Im so glad you GOT IT!!!!!

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