I'm in one of my little depressed episodes... even on meds they pop up from time to time and tend to last a few days... this one started yesterday. I can't focus on anything, for the past few days I've been so tired all the time. I've been trying to study and do school work and the most I'm getting done is about 2 hours a day when I'm supposed to be doing 8 hours a day.
I haven't really been getting to meetings since I moved, I tried out one a week and a half ago and didn't like it, have been planning to try out the other ones here but haven't yet. I'm going tomorrow night though. I'd planned to go tonight but I'm dead tired and I think I'm about to go to bed even though it's only 7 here. I really think I'm too tired to even drive tonight and my sponsor said to wait till tomorrow. Hopefully I won't be so tired then. I'm getting plenty of sleep but I wake up tired and I'm exhausted by the end of the day
Sorry, just needed to whine and vent a bit. This depression usually lasts a few days and then I'm fine again, so I just gotta suffer through it. My sponsor thinks it's from all the changes lately, I went from a real quiet life in a tiny town to a real busy life now that I'm close to family and friends and stuff and I'm not used to that... it's been a good change, but it'll take me awhile to adjust, and any kind of big change isn't really good for a bipolar...
Right there with you. Been going through some emotional roller coaster myself - and although I normally like to throw my hands in the air and treasure that tickle in my tummy - not laughing this time. Great for a couple of days then ANGER or depression and just a struggle.
Sounds like you have a good handle on it - have been here before and are working through it. One time recently I knew the only solution was movement - but I just didn't have the energy. Catch 22. So I got on the phone w/ a friend that I chat with for hours and a time - and did laps around my front yard while on the phone. Just pacing - walking - back and forth for a couple of hours. It worked. Perked me up a bit.
And please - vent away! I sure do! I love this place. It keeps me from doing mean and nasty things to others .
Here is a little caffiene hug your way.
tlc
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Well, Hun, I'd think being pregnant would factor in to all of this......Listen to your body. Rest if you need to. Get to a meeting when you feel like but keep in close contact with your sponsor and other AA's between meetings.
Just take it one day at the time.....
(((hugs)))
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Thanks y'all... I'm starting to think being tired is the problem, and I'm getting depressed because I'm so tired. I'm fine in the mornings as far as the depression goes, but as the day goes on and I get more and more tired I feel worse. It's almost 8 here and I'm about to go to bed, I can't usually stay up later than 7 or 8 lately. I'm getting bloodwork at the doctor next week, gonna have them test me for anemia just in case. I got real tired like this for about 2 weeks when I first got pregnant though, before I even knew I was pregnant... so maybe it's just pregnancy.
'Just' pregnancy.. As if there ever was such a thing! lol Lisa, you're experiencing an amazing & beautiful phenomenon & I'm delighted for the Gift you're growing inside you which is bound to be some hardwork & take much energy! Keep your chin up, Gurl :) I'm glad you called by a shared. You're not alone & I hope your program is bringing you joy, surrender & strength. Easy Does It, Lady xx Prayers for you here, Danielle x
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You are not the only one around here going through bouts of depression, my friend. The winter haze is kicking a lot of butts right now. I think we are all evolved form bears, not monkeys. Bears hibernate in the winter!!! you know, even my dog, who is a Nordic breed, sleeps about twice as much as usual right now. Must be something in that. Maybe the universe is trying to tell us we should take a 6 month sabbatical from our jobs in the winter and hibernate??? (wishful thinking)
Hope you feel better soon. Those GOOD hormones should be kicking in for you eventually!
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