Hi All, I have been reading on here almost everyday for a few weeks even though I have been struggling to stay sober and not fully succeeding.
Thanks to Quetzel messaging me and emailing me everyday I have been able to keep my head above water and to come out of the relapse.
I had wrote to someone that I have many excuses but yet none.
The fear in my gut can run my life if I let it and lead me to drink. I have to make friends with the fear as I have given advice to others to do. I forget all that and when I do I go into a dark hole and drink myself silly.
I have so much to be grateful in my life.
I had allowed two people into my life that is not good for it and for two weeks straight they came into my home and I allowed them to overtake it. Last Monday I told one of them to go away and then the second one promised to stay sober and be productive but did not keep their word so yesterday I told them never to come to my home again.
It is not their fault I drank at all. I know that certain people places and things should be avoided to stay sober and keep a sober mind. So with that in mind and with the help of Quetzel/Carol I was able to gain enough sanity to tap into that and clean house of it all. Thank you Quetzel!!! And also Tysonmike who has been a big inspiration to me also.
I am so grateful today that I am back on track and have a plan. I do not feel shame or bad about myself at all that will only bring me down. I am proud of myself in all ways and feel blessed to be sober today with no hangover.
You all have helped me as I read on here and I want to thank you all. God bless Rosie
Wow ~ double ditto, Rosie! I need meetings to help keep my thinking on track too.
I'm nurturing my connection with my Higher Power but I need help keeping in with my Fellowship too. So good to know I'm not alone. Staying Sober seems crazy to me sometimes when my illness is sneaking in with its cunning, baffling & powerful ways. I only have to hear my brothers & sisters in recovery sharing their ES&H to remember that my drinking can bring back & take me to all of that madness & despair I was in before & to remember it gets worse, never better.
Onwards & Upwards in Sobriety :) Ps. I've nearly finished my Step4 after running around in distraction again. I'm learning to believe just how far I'll go to stay dishonest with myself. What an illness. My Gosh! lol Thanks for being here. Keep coming back. I hope your meetings bring you a newer & better quality to your sobriety than you've ever had before. It works when you work it ;) Daniella x
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Hi Girls and thank you for your support. I am doing much better now.
One thing I did tonight was join Ty Kwon Do. My son and his four kids all are doing it and my son is also now certified to teach it. It is a great exercise and discipline. It was so much fun and the people are so supportive and fun.
I have been in touch with a lady who is starting up a ladys AA meeting and I hope we can get that going soon again. Many meetings have closed here due to many reasons and I am hoping this will work.
I have been on the phone talking to women here and even if we are far apart they are very supportive also.
Life is good and I am very happy to be sober today and to have this forum. God bless you all, Love Rosie
Glad to hear you are feeling better Rosie. I ditto the above dittos. Last night a girl who relapsed after 17 months said, and Ive heard it over and over, that she cut down on meetings and next thing you know shes in the psych ward. She shared with us how she got immediately back to where she was and worse!!! Praying you find your way back to the rooms and on to a better life!! You can do it!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Hi Lani, I appreciate your sharing that. It is so true on how alcohol can bring a person down very quickly. I see nothing good from it and all bad.
A friend of mine who is really struggling and who goes to bars said he looks around at the people and it does not make sense that everyone just sits there and would not be sitting around if they were not drinking like that.
And nothing productive is happening meanwhile. Or someone who drinks at home or under a bridge etc does not make sense. Except of course it is a dis-ease and needs to be addressed.
I am grateful to be sober today.
I am watching the Today show and they are showing "Celebrity rehab" on there and how sick everyone is. It is an eyeopener to see that. And a reminder that we are all human beings on the earth with problems.
I watched intervention last night and they had people on who had been sober for 3 yrs etc since they had been in treatment and it was nice to see.
Seeing the senseless of others is a good way to look at my own. And to see others who are making their life better reminds me of how I have lived before and how much progress and great things I have accomplished when not drinking.
We ALL need each other in our quests and that is a nice feeling. Keep up the great work Lani. You deserve this so much. God bless love Rosie
Under the lash of alcoholism, we are driven to A.A., and there we discover the fatal nature of our situation. Then, and only then, do we become as open-minded to conviction and as willing to listen as the dying can be. We stand ready to do anything which will lift the merciless obsession from us. 12 and 12 page 24. (My italics)
