Hi all My mentor called who I have known for 12 yrs. She is a recovering alcoholic and an addiction counselor that took me on during the 4 yrs I got sober. She understands the feelings I have toward AA due to the rape and not trusting the women here to sponsor me due to the woman who sponsored me and told all my business.
So I feel good about this. She is going to call me back tonight after she is done supper and when we can not be disrupted in talking at 7 pm. I miss her and I talking. We talked everyday for four years straight until this past year.
She is happy to have me back. I will be joining the ISAP program and get into seeing my other counseling people I will be able to stay strong and to grow. Especially without the toxic relationship.
And I have also put down boundaries with others for a year now even in the midst of drinking who now respect those and we have a nice relationship due to it.
It was strange today that one of the women from ISAP had called and left me a message to call her but I had not talked to her for months. I called back and told her to call me about joining again. So I hope that can be done ASAP!
I need to surround myself with my people again. I know if I had talked to them yesterday I could have avoided the relapse. But would have could have does not matter. What matters is getting well.
