Hi All, I feel so grateful and free of so much now that I put down the booze. Life feel so much better and putting the abusive relationship and my ex where it belongs.
The alcohol created fears and doubts about all I went through and what I knew for a fact to be true. And those fears and doubts did not allow me to feel strong. Now I walk stronger and have taken back my power and control.
I thank God for this because in my depths of despair I thought my life as I used to know it was over. I feel that I had to go through the pain the way I did all these months since March to finally get to this point.
It was hard and I just could not believe that yet another day would come and I would still feel the same way. In pain and totally down for the count. I was so angry and hurt by all of the traumatic feelings I had from the abuse.
And that he blamed me for what he did to me.
But now I feel at peace. I had a hard time walking out on my patio or working in the yard and just enjoying my home after he had lived here for eight yrs and so many awful vile memories were made but now I have taken back my home and it is so peaceful.
I hung a nice wind chime on my patio and it is nice to hear the chimes. I feel blessed. I am back and better than ever. Rosie
Thanks for sharing your well earned journey with us Rosie! You are doing such a great job and Im glad your feeling so great!!!!! I feel ya sister!!!! Love wind chimes and may you enjoy it on a daily basis for a LONG time!
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Hi Lani, I love the chimes and tonight the wind is lightly blowing and they sound so nice.
Your support is very much appreciated
Life is good and I did not know I'd ever be able to say that while I was in the pits of hell even while I drank the booze it was getting to be a chore. I had fear in the pits of my stomach when I felt I wanted a six pack or that I wanted to go out after drinking it.
I am so free from that now. All those crazy uncomfortable feelings are gone. And the panic attacks are at bay and the high blood pressure. It is a miracle for me after eight yrs of abuse plus I started drinking here and there along the way. I did get sober for four yrs toward the end and I was so much stronger even while he abused me. But this past year got to be too much as he escalated in his attacks and I gave up my supports and counseling. And started drinking again.
I was in hell and thought I would die that way. Now I am free from it all. I thank God! Thank you for your support. Love Rosie
You sound great, Rosie! I'm so glad. I'm doing well also; so glad for the anxieties and depression and worry to be gone. Life is beautiful; God is good!
Thanks so much for sharing with us. I always love your posts.
Every sober day that I have is infinitely better than any day I had when I was drinking. I am so truly grateful that I was given the gift of desperation that got me back to AA. Now, one day at a time, I have been given the gift of sobriety.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Hi all, I appreciate your posts of support so much. Yes Carol the gift of desperation gives us so many gifts that keep going on and on.
I am so happy today and at peace. All the language of letting go posts have been so helpful and I have passed them on to my friends and family who they help so much also.
