I am 31 and have not been happy about my drinking for atleast the past 3 years. Three years ago I found out I had a brain tumor the doctors did not know if it was cancer for three months (november thru January) I had my surgery the day after my daughters first Birthday. I was very lucky it was not cancer, but I had a rough recovery, and felt so much guilt for my the 3 and 1 year old, not to mention the fear of it returning. So I have been on a bit of a bing trying to knumb the thoughts of guilt and fear. I KNOW THIS IS A WEBSITE FOR AA AND TRUST ME i AM GETTING THERE. I am not making excuses for my self. as specially since I was in a car accident and could have been killed my kids need me and I need to straighten up. I am turning to anyone on this site who could give me strenth and courage because I could use a little bit of both. It seems hard when everyone else is around you offering a drnk, i need to be strong and help myself. Sorry for this being so long but I wanted you all to know where i stand. Lost and confused sweatpea
I wish we lived in the same town. I think maybe we could help each other be strong. I also want to live for my kids. I also know that right now I don't have the strength to do it on my own. I hope someone with wisdom can give you some advice. I have nothing except I know what you're going through and I will be your friend. With the other post that I wrote I got some really nice, helpful comments. I think about them alot. Its nice to know that people here can be so supportive of us who are not "quite there yet". I need support as I'm sure you do too. Good luck to you.
Hi Girls Give AA a try! It is so worth it!!! You do need to do it for yourself but you will also find the bonus in seeing a change in your family life too!! I drank on and off while my kids (15,16) we;re growing up. The last two years of my drinking were rough and Im so mad I missed so much of what was going on with them! Thats the past though and I cant dwell on it! Today I can remember what family things we did, Im not ashamed that I was drinking at a school event, my kids are coming to respect me and I dont live with the daily guilt that drinking myself silly brought!
Youre kids are young enough that if you do choose to live a sober life, they wont be as effected by your drinking as they could be! It is a wonderful life and I wouldnt change a thing today!!!
Stay strong, use your support systems, get to some meetings! If you dont like it, at least you gave it a try! Do it today, do it for you!!
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