Hi guys.. first off.. let me say THANK YOU for the wonderful welcome..
Today is Day 4 of my sobriety. It got VERY hard last night. I felt like I was going to crash today, but haven't. Doing better today. Calmer.. I do have a question, tho.
Is it normal to feel sad for giving up drinking?? I feel like I'm losing my best friend and I feel so lonely without it, but when I get it, I regret it each time.. I let my food rot, I neglate my appearence, I say stupid things.. I embarrasss myself, and worst of all, I am so sick all I can do is lay around and throw up and feel that horrible inflammation of my liver and vow never to do it again..
Have all of you.. at some point, have mixed feelings about it even tho the biggest desire of all IS to stop? Does this make me bad that I wish I could drink, but I'm glad I haven't caved in??
Woohoo on day four! Great job!!!!! Just a day at a time! You are not alone in your sad feelings about not drinking. Ive been there and still have days where, "if only...." Yea right, if I could only have one (not) and not make a fool of myself, embarrass my family........
So, hang in there....Play back the tape as they say...Remember how you feel after drinking, what grief it caused and ask is it worth it!
You can do this
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Hang in there you are doing great. remember when it gets tough focus on not drinking today only, its not forever, its just for today. good luck and keep posting
Bryan
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
Hang in there you are doing great. remember when it gets tough focus on not drinking today only, its not forever, its just for today. good luck and keep posting
Bryan
Thank you so much, Bryan. That is indeed a big help. More than you'll ever know.. see.. that's what's been killing me, I can never have a drink as long as I live. But if I just tell myself.. it's only for today.. it helps a lot..
