There's an original subject line for you :). Anyway, my name isn't Yak, obviously, but I guess it will do. Came here for the same reason that I guess most of the rest of you did - ie because I really, really am finding it difficult to control my drinking. I've reached a stage where I feel mentally and physically ill all the time and it's a vicious circle - feel ill, drink more, and more and more.
Anyway not sure what I am hoping for from here .. would just like to talk to people who understand really.
Anything that has to be controlled is out of control. That's why I gave it up all together, admitted I'm powerless over alcohol (alcoholic) and have come to believe that with help I can stay sober one day at the time.......If you're sick and tired of being sick and tired, give a call to your local AA or go to a meeting. Sounds as if you've got nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Good luck.
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Welcome Yak Try giving AA a chance. Life is too precious to feel crappy all the time!
I feel great today because I dont have all the mental and physical garbage that came with drinking. Not every day is perfect but its a heck of a lot better today because I admitted I was powerless over alcohol (like Doll said oops!) and asked for some help!!!! Good luck Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Welcome- and let me just say that feeling sick stinks, especially when you can't remember what it's like to wake up clear-headed. If you choose to stop drinking, you will gain so much- both dramatic and subtle. No more rationalizing, no more secretiveness, no more guilt. Life is never easy, but I made it exponentially more difficult by drinking. Keep posting! BeachGirl
Welcome Yak we're glad you found us. As doll said you should find a meeting this place is a great way to stay connected and get answers and support between meetings so meanwhile keep posting
Bryan
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
I have contemplated going in person to a meeting and probably will - I am just very nervous about it :(. It seems so public, even though I know that everyone there is in the same boat. I wanted to try an online forum first just to, I dunno, get myself used to the idea of talking about this because frankly - I haven't before. People have commented on my drinking - have, in fact, been commenting on it for years - but I've never before turned round and said 'it's a problem'.
Welcome to the board. Yeah we all felt terrified to go to our first meeting, and what a waste of emotions that is, because an AA meeting is one of the most laid back friendly places that we could ever hope to walk into. Almost like a party, and in fact these are the same people that you drank with only now we found that we don't Have to drink to have a life and a lot of fun. All of the perceptions that I had about AA being some sort of death sentence and absolutely the end of my fun where so polar oposite of the truth.
I actually had a lot of fun when I was drinking, up to a point when it got out of control. But I've had exponentially more fun, and have gotten to do almost anthing that I've ever wanted to do. At 48 years old, if I had to leave this life tomorrow, I'd be thoroughly satisfied by the experiences that I've had and what I've accomplished, no regrets. The positive experiences in the nearly 19 years that I've been sober couldn't have been had in 100 years of of my dysfunctional drinking life. Stick around, and head for a meeting. Your comment about "other people talking about my drinking" is text book. They say that "The alcoholic is the Last person to know about his/her alcohol problem". So if most of the people, in your life know, who cares if you go to an AA meeting? "Thank God" would probably be the response.
Welcome Yak. Here's some good news. There's help in AA. There's hope in the fellowship. There's happiness after booze. Check out a meeting. It cant be as painfull as another week of what you describe in your post. Best wishes.
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My warranty on tomorrow has run out. My guarantee on the past is void. Nothing is going my way... and I like it like that.
