Like I say in my bio, I am an alcoholic and need help but it was gettting help that was always the hardest part for me. My boyfriend who also used to go to AA says that I am spiritually sick, which I definitely have to agree with. I've lost my faith in God and I know that in order to get better I have to regain my faith and give up all control to God. I've read what the 12 steps are but I'm only new to this program after finally realizing that it was either I get help or I'll allow my life be destroyed even more till nobody wants to even be around me anymore. I did try to get help by seeing a therapist, but it did nothing and I stopped going. The biggest problem with therapists is usually they haven't experienced it first hand, so no matter how much schooling they've gotten they can never fully understand. So like I said, I'm new at this and I'm kind of confused and lost right now. My boyfriend is planning to give me the book and he's planning on taking me to AA meeting the end of this week which I'm pretty nervous about. I usually tend to get nervous in social situations which is the hardest part for me about going but I have to be willing to do what the first step says which is admitting I'm powerless over my situation and doing whatever it takes to get help. Which is probably the reason I also joined this online group as it's always good to talk to people who can actually have some idea of what you're going through.
Hello and welcome. We've all been where you're at. Sounds like you have the right attitude for sobriety. Desperation is a blessing, don't lose it too fast, hope is on the way.
Hi Jenn welcome. The AA big book talks about a jumping off place where we can't imagine life with or without alcohol. your post seems like you're there so good luck.
Bryan
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Obsession with self in these matters is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life. Romans 8:6 , The Message
Welcome. (So is that like five 'Jens' now? I see a pattern forming.)
Don't drink the first one.
I love that. I used to be a little overwhelmed at the prospect of not drinking until a buddy of mine told me I don't need to focus on all of the years ahead of me and how my life might change. He said all I need to focus on is not drinking the first one. Seemingly inane, but it turned out to be pretty valuable advice.
Welcome yet another JENN!!!!! Glad to see you posting..Youre in the right place! Im glad you have some support through your boyfriend! It makes it a little easier (at times) when you have a loved one supporting you. My hubby and I both go to AA...
Go to meetings, dont drink!!!!!! You'll love the results and you sound like you have the willingness to give this a go! Good luck! Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
haha oh trust me, I hear the name 'Jenn' all around me and I turn around but they're talking to someone else. Anyways I wasn't expecting to join AA, what I did want to do is go to a psychiatrist and get meds but then I heard about the 12 steps and how life changing it can be so it was hope for me that I hadn't experienced in a while. My boyfriend's planning on taking me to an AA meeting tomorrow night which I'm kind of anxious about but also curious at the same time to see what it's really like. Either he's giving me the Big Book, or I'm getting one at the meeting but that's exactly what the meeting is, a 'book' meeting. And it feels better just to have someone to listen to you who's 'been there, done that'. I'll post back on here to tell how the meeting went. Thanks guys :) ~* Jenn *~
And Welcome!!