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nique


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Hi everyone!  I have been gone quite a while.  Was out there doing that ugly research again.  No it has not gotten any better out there.
I went through 2 weeks of hellish detoxing and am just feeling good enough to sit up and type.  I really did a number on myself.  I pray I have hit my last bottom.
I found a wonderful online homegroup.  It meets 3 times a day and I got a great sponsor from there also.
What I have learned is to never let your guard down and stay always vigilint in the program.  Rarely have we seen a person fail who THOUROUGHLY follows our path.
Im glad to be back with you all!!
Love,
Allison

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Hi Allison,

glad that you made it back. Sounds like you've redoubled you efforts at sobriety. We've had a lot of new folks come in here in the last 6 months. Maybe you might share what you think caused you to go back out, so that they may avoid doing the same?

Dean smile.gif

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lani


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Hey Allson
Welcome back! Good suggestion from Dean, remind us of why thinking that "one glass of wine" wouldnt be a great option for us! Sounds like your taking things seriously! Good luck!
Lani

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Hi Allison,

I'm so glad that you made it back. I was thinking of you the other day and hoping that we'd hear from you again soon.

I'd love to hear about what made you go back out as I know that it would be great ES&H for me.

Take care,

Carol

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Glad you made it back, and that you shared. Your experience reminds me of my own experiences with relapse, and I definitely need to remember those, and never forget.

I hope you feel better soon, and can get to some 3D meetings as well. Welcome back, and keep pushing forward!



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lani


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What's 3D???????

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I think she means f2f by saying 3D just guessing.
Anyway, to expand on what you are all asking what made me relapse. I was not honest,
the whole time I was staying sober from alcohol I was smoking pot on a daily basis. I was in denial that it was wrong to do. I am an alcoholic so I thought that meant just staying off alcohol. Not realizing what the pot was doing to my mind,. Well of course the day came I didnt have any pot and not enough money to get any and since I was missing that high I bought some beer to replace it and of course the compulsion began immediately. I have been on a rollar coaster of every drug I could get and drinking binges. Every drunk was worse than the last. This last drunk took me over 2 weeks to detox from and the detox was hell. I found an online meeting that meets 3 times a day and I just love it and I got a sponsor there. She is really working with me and I am feeling better every day.
Hope this helps someone.
Love you all!
Allison

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lani


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Hey Alison
I think you did post a while back they you were still smoking pot....Hopefully all the drugs and alcohol are being addressed now! Its easy to fool ourselves that because we quit drinking things are ok...But it does lead to using other things as youve stated!!! Keep up the good work!!!!

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Thanks Allison,
I am also a drug addict (amongst other things smile.gif ) and going to NA to address/confront remind myself of that fact, was another step that I took in my recovery, to insure my sobriety. I also noticed my perpensity to switch addictions to spending money, collecting, working, saving money, restoring cars, relationships..... basically anything that I could get obsessed about, distract myself from my feelings, and maybe get some outward (false) self esteem from. I echo what others said about getting to F2F meetings. That's how we create our place in this fellowship, make new (real) friends and avoid issolating and the lonliness that accompanies it. Our disease thrives on isolation and lonliness to victimize us into using.

Dean

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Welcome back, Allison x It's great to have you here again. I was wondering how you were & when you'd return. We don't automatically assume that people have gone on their own way & taken a drink so it's something of a surprise tho a relief to know that you've been out there but lived to share ES&H about it. Very fortunate. I believe sometimes it can take people a long time to get back in their sobriety saddle & working a good program again. It sounds like you're working hard to put a number of days between you & your last drunk & that's great. Thank God!

Stay close & keep sharing where you are & how it's all going for you. Sobriety is a beautiful journey in my experience so keep abreast of yourself & glorifying in the simple pleasures of what it means to be & stay sober 1Day@aTime. I love to celebrate daily what it's giving to me by grace each day. I'm with a man in recovery too since we last spoke & it's going great. I'm enjoying sharing my story with him & for me, it's enhanced my experience because I can talk about it all & relate with him on this level. That's my news while you were away. I was single 14mths & been sober 18mths so got some good foundations, I think!

Everything's good with me & I don't want to drink today. Feel free to share anything & everything around why it really isn't a necessary thing for me to go & try the old game again. Today I don't want to & with your help, I won't have to. Thanks for coming back & sharing with us, Allison. Stay close, make some new friends in fellowship & get yourself to some meetings. I find the more I do, the more effortless it is. God bless you. I'm glad you're ok, Danielle x

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