I woke up this morning annoyed, full of anxiety and fear. I did get upset yesterday and stress over something for about an hour so I guess I could have an "emotional hangover" but I dont think so. I think I just wake up screwed up sometimes as part of the lovely side effects of being an alcoholic. Ive often heard that alcoholic possibly do not have the same physical ability to handle fear the way other normal brains do. Seems like as good a theory as any most of the time. Anyway, I prayed pretty good this morning and Im functioning now, but Ive had periods where I wasn't praying much and this happened and it made life so hard to take. I'd end up angrier than usual for weeks at a time just dying from fear. I so need God so much more than I ever really realize.
I think we all have peroids of fear and anxiety but now we can Actually FEEL it! Before I used to hide in the old bottle, especially when doing bills! (no wonder I screwed them all up and my husband has now taken that over!!!)
I agree, now when those periods of anxiety take over I pray hard! More often than not the fear goes away, or I share with others on here or at a meeting. I cant believe the serenity I feel after doing one of those things!!!!
So, once again, its all good and youre normal-believe it or not! L
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
I think some of us have PTSD form what we put ourselves through. Alcohol really dragged us through the gutter, and exposed some of us to some pretty horrific circumstances. I have been treated for the above-named condition and things have gotten a lot better. I hope things get better in regards to fear and anxiety, for you. Don't know what your individual experiences were, but you may want to consider that there might be other isues to address.
Hope you feel better, and got to wind down a bit today.
Take care of yourself, because you deserve it!!
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~~"It's hard to be hateful when you're grateful."~~
Time to turn up the faith a couple notches BR. I know that you've mentioned that you struggle with that a little. Even if you use the model of "fake it till you make it" with faith, it has positive results. I've found little ways to increase my faith, at first, by attributing positive things that come my way on a daily basis to my HP. An asking for help with the daily grind stuff makes me feel more connected. I've been self employed the entire time during my sobriety and routinely pray for work. Sometimes I wait too long and work gets slow, like this winter. But by the time I got around to praying for work in early February, it was getting crucial. A week later, and ever since, big jobs have poured in so much so I was able to save enough for a 20% down payment on our new home. Meanwhile, most of the other contractors in my area are crying about how slow it is.
Meanwhile, most of the other contractors in my area are crying about how slow it is.