AAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

AAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lani · MIP Old Timer

Oh Joni
That sucks! But, alls you can do is call tomorrow and explain things! Better yet, if you dont have clinicals, dress up and stop by! Dang I hate when that happens. Pray hard! It will all work out! I know youve worked hard for all that you are achieving and God wont let you down!!!
Good luck!!!!

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

I have clinicals again tomorrow, or believe me, I would be showing up in a suit at 8 am sharp!!! But I am sure God will work it out if it is meant to be. I just need to accept that I am truly NOT at fault for once, and that these things can happen, DESPITE sobriety, and the best of intentions. I cannot let the old tapes start playing in my head. Those old tapes are USELESS.

Making a pot of decaf and planning to find something else to focus on (if possible lol) for the evening....

Phil · MIP Old Timer

It seems almost too simple to be true, but acceptance -- accepting
things exactly as they are -- can be the key that unlocks the door to
happiness.

It may be one of the most referenced passages in recovery literature. It's from Page 449 of Alcoholics Anonymous or The Big Book as it is widely known:

And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am
disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation
-- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and I can find no
serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being
exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake.
Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I
accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to
concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on
what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.

For
me, serenity began when I learned to distinguish between those things
that I could change and those I could not. When I admitted that there
were people, places, things, and situations over which I was totally
powerless, those things began to lose their power over me. I learned
that everyone has the right to make their own mistakes, and learn from
them, without my interference, judgement, or assistance!

The key to my serenity is acceptance. But "acceptance" does not mean
that I have to like it, condone it, or even ignore it. What it does
mean is I am powerless to do anything about it... and I have to accept
that fact.

Nor does it mean that I have to accept "unacceptable
behavoir." Today I have choices. I no longer have to accept abuse in
any form. I can choose to walk away, even if it means stepping out into
the unknown. I no longer have to fear "change" or the unknown. I can
merely accept it as part of the journey.

I spent years
trying to change things in my life over which I was powerless, but did
not know it. I threatened, scolded, manipulated, coerced, pleaded,
begged, pouted, bribed and generally tried everything I could to make
the situation better -- only watch as things always got progressively
worse.

I spent so much time trying to change the things I
could not change, it never once occurred to me to simply accept them as
they were.

Now when things in my life are not going the way
I planned them, or downright bad things happen, I can remind myself
that whatever is going on is not happening by accident. There's a
reason for it and it is not always meant for me to know what that
reason is.

beachgirl · Senior Member

I think that the memory of always having been at fault is powerful. Once you have righted yourself - even then,the sting, almost like a paranoia, persists. You did everything right. Perfection is the enemy of the good. Beachgirl

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

uuuggghhhh..... I read that expert on acceptance, Phil, and I thank you for posting it. I am extremely upset tonight, as this is NOT a good thing especially in my field where there is a serious sense of repsonsibility and duty.... the only thing I can do to accept this tonight is to say my prayers, ask God for guidance, and go to bed now. Tomorrow morning will come quickly and then I can do my best to handle the situation. To be continued.....

Thank you for your love and understanding.

Love,
Joni

lani · MIP Old Timer

Funny Phil:
Someone read that exact thing at out meeting tonight. Two people "went" out and shared. Someone read this as a response to their mistake.

It is true, Accept it and move on. Joni you have the right idea! Nothing at all you can do about all this and just make the call tomorrow and whatever happens.....There is a reason for all our the things that happen in our lives!!

The job I soooo wanted got offered to another person. Come to find out, it was the best thing that could have happened to me......I found out a little later that the job was a joke and they cheated her out of alot of money etc....

Que, sera sera.........whatever will be, will be!

Hang tough! You'll be okay!!!

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Thanks Phil, I printed that. Joni, keep saying the serentiy prayer and doing your gratitude lists. I wish you guys would watch that movie "the secret". According to the "law of attraction" we get more of what we bitch about or more of what we
are grateful for. It's our choice. Have a serene and grateful day. smile

Dean

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

Wow.

I called, they said they could very well have been the ones who made the mistake in scheduling, and asked when I'd like to re-schedule it for. Simple as that.

And meanwhile, a WHOLE NIGHT of WHIRLING over something that I had NO idea about the outcome. None.

I really need to chill out and work on my Faith and my ability to roll with the punches. I am such an infant in recovery!!!!!!

My pendulum is swinging so far to extremes right now. Am i the first person graduating from college who has felt this way? Probably not......

lani · MIP Old Timer

Well, how about that!!!!! All that fussin for nothin!!! lol
Glad to hear things worked out well! What a relief and "lesson learned"

Easy for all of us to say, no big deal, dont worry, etc... It is hard to accept things and trust God but your doing a damn good job! Keep it up! Progress........

Let us know how the interview goes!!! No stressin out before hand either young lady!!!lol
Have a great night!
Lani

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Joni,

maybe you're like my brother. He gets jacked up on decaf. Placebo effect I guess

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

AAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

THERE!!! Just had to get another one out!!