I sweated, cried and prayed it out, and read all of your wonderful posts here. I had terrifying dreams, not about drinking, but about death, losing my job, getting shot, people falling out of windows. I always have vivid, violent dreams when I'm going through a hard time. This just came out of nowhere yesterday, so it really shook me up. Thankfully I am finding new ways to cope.
This morning my husband surprised me with a giant basket filled with all of my favorite Easter junk. We hid it in the pantry so the kids can't get it. It's just what I needed -- thoughtfulness, and lots of sugar.
Today is a new day. Yesterday wasn't pretty, but here I am. I never would have believed that I had any strength, any will to make it. I know that it came from somewhere else. Where? It doesn't matter, not now.
Hi Jen Happy Easter Enjoy that basket of goodies!!!! Not to plug "daily reflections" haha, but read the post for today! Did that hit it on the head for me today!!!!! Actually, both 24/daily!!!!
Arent you glad you "made it!!!" Lani
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Hi Jen, It appears that your HP sent you a reward for the struggles you went through. It is nice that you have that kind of support from your husband. We all go through those times but it is aaaahhhh so sweet when we make to the other side. Keep on going. It gets easier!!! Wanda
It sounds like you got past a day that just a little while ago would have redirected your energy in another direction - you didn't drink. You're doing great.
I find my ability to handle things is different every day, some days even Kryptonite can't make a dent on my outlook and other days I find myself escorting a fly out the window so I won't hurt it. And if I find myself debating whether I have any ability at all I don't have to go too far to remember what it was like when I had none.
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