thirsty

jc2008 · Veteran Member

thirsty

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Jen, you've only got 30 days. Of course you're still going to think about drinking. Did hide these urges from your sponsor, it's our secrets that will hurt us. You're doing the right thing. When the thought of a drink comes up, you
play it through your mind, what will happen when you get drunk and the consequences that may not have happened to you Yet. Don't be disappointed, it's only natural for us to think about drinking. What's unnatural is
declining that invitation to drink. It's a growth opportunity, and given repetition (saying no) the urge will get weaker and less frequent. I just laugh it off these days like "ya right lol".

Have you tried listening to online tapes of AA speakers? Bob Earl was one of my favorites from early sobriety.

try these http://www.healtalk.com/public/38.shtml

http://www.xa-speakers.org/pafiledb.php?action=category&id=1

-- Edited by StPeteDean at 16:32, 2008-03-22

Phil · MIP Old Timer

It takes time to go through the grief cycle...something like a relationship..thats pretty tight.:)

It was a big part of us..and now its not.

You hang tough!!

lani · MIP Old Timer

Hi Jen
Had those urges too! Shared here, went to a meeting, then another meeting, told my sponser and guess what!? Didnt drink! I felt the same way you did about that one dang glass of wine....Of course, what a tease that would be for any alcoholic. Yea I get pissed cuz my drinking days are done, but so are my days of driving my kids around drunk, lying, stealing (just cuz I wanted too) and embarrassing myself at family functions! As they say, "play the tape back!" That might help remind you of why you are here!!!!

Have a great holiday!
Lani

jc2008 · Veteran Member

God help me, I want to drink so badly.

Tuggboat · Senior Member

It is an obsession of the mind and as such is a form of the insanity refered to in the second step. This morning you quit counting days. If you don't drink for the rest of today you will have one more. Don't give in, you have no physical compulsion active now and no withdrawl from addiction. This is easy street compared to where you were a month ago.

Step one, we are powerless over alcohol. Once ingested we cannot stop with any certainty or predictability.

Our life has become unmanageable. Our world and things around us are not as we would have them because alcohol has taken the power from us to manage things.

We have a lack of powewr. we must turn to a new source since we do not have sufficient power of our own. This power must be by all logic something that is more powerful or greater than ourselves.

Do you believe or have you ever believed their is a power greater than yourself?
Do you believe this power can restore your sanity and relieve your obsession? If not do you believe there IS a pwer great enough to remove your obsession.?

There comes a time in all recovering alcoholics lives where they must sincerly ask for help. There is a time for fervent prayer. That time is now. With all your heart ask for help. With all your heart ask that the obsession be removed and serenity be restored. Just ask for the rest of today's sobriety even, and don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle happens.

I will pray for you but you also have to pray for yourself.

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Hey Jen,

It is a full moon or very close to it. This always has an affect on me. It usually makes me more restless, agitated, or discontent, but when I was drinking, I drank harder and often go into trouble. Go to bed early tomorrow will be a better day.

Tuggboat · Senior Member

Yes, you will probably be better in the AM.

Check HALT. Hungry angry lonely tired.

Get some sleep. If you don't drink it will pass. If you do, it will not go away quickly at all, if ever.

moonbeams888 · Member

I am 4 days sober now and did feel the urge to drink 2 nights ago. I ran the scene through my head from start to finish and agreed with myself that it was not worth it. It is Easter Sunday and my family have gone their seperate ways on holidays and usually I would be drinking feeling lonely. I got up (refreshed) had a shower, washed my hair and thought OMG I need a hair cut. So had a healthy breakfast and went to the hairdresser. Came home and made some homemade beef and vegetable soup. I will take my dogs for a walk later. Baby steps for me. I have to live one hour at a time.

Tuggboat · Senior Member

Your doing great Moon. I hope everybodies holiday is nice . :)

Nisha · Veteran Member

Jen,

Today what u are going thru is close to my state of mind today.May u get all the strength to cope up.I will pray for u and me.

nisha

Phil · MIP Old Timer

Hang Tough!!

And

Anything you wish to share with a sponsor..

Will not shock them..

Why?

Because theyve been there...:)

Doll · MIP Old Timer

Sounds like typical "normal alcoholic" thinking to me. But DEFINATELY talk to your sponsor and quick......It does get better, really.....

(((hugs)))

Bryan39 · Senior Member

great job moombeam on 4 days hang in there it gets better lots better.

jc at 30 days cravings are still normal, for me it was friday nights on the way home from work every week i would get cravings like you wouldn't believe, go to an extra meeting (my first 3 or 4 months i went to 2 meetings every day off and one on work days), physical activity helps for me as well,

let me say this another way

1st accept the craving as normal as something you have to deal with , you are after all an alcoholic

2nd decide what you will do about it,

3rd assuming you aren't going to drink, take action find a meeting, go for a walk, call aniother AA'er, go get an icecream cone, or simply stop and see if you are H.A.L.T.

good luck

Bryan