Two weeks yesterday

jc2008 · Veteran Member

Two weeks yesterday

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

wow, once again you amaze me with the speed at which you're realizing the gifts of the program. It takes most of us months, years, or never to "get it". You're even getting the gratitude part, which is the path for all future blessings. simple formula Gratitude = Happiness.

That time you took yesterday moring for prayer and meditation, and reflection that evening is the most underated part of the program. It's the part a lot of people won't do because of the HP thing. Praying daily for the obsession to drink to be removed is the fastest way to rid yourself of it. It took 6 months of steady praying for me to get relief from the day to day obsession. Sure there were a few days here and there but for the most part I wanted to drink everyday and had to fight it.

Great news Jen as always, keep up the good work.

Dean

jc2008 · Veteran Member

Thanks Dean. I take no credit for the past 15 days. I'm desperate, and I want this. I know if I drink, I will die. For some reason I've been able to listen and ask for help. It is totally contrary to my nature -- stubborn, egomaniacal, controlling. Something happened to me, and I can't explain it, so I won't try. I just know it has something to do with posting on this board and going to meetings.

Sept_19_2002 · Veteran Member

Thank you Jen for sharing another day with us.

Truly incredible isn't it? Amazingly it gets better and better. Freedom is one of the greatest blessings of this program. I've been clean and sober since '92 and I still get down on my knees every morning and thank God for all that I have. In all honesty no one is more surprised than me when I wake up and I'm still here smile

For me I find by getting on my knees it reinforces that without God in my life I am truly lost. Accepting him keeps the alcoholic drug addict in me powerless. On my knees I have no room for doubt that a power greater than myself restored me to sanity. And with no doubt comes freedom.

Jen you are truly an inspiration to us here. Many of us hit such horrific bottoms, places of despair and angst that none of us would wish that fate on our greatest enemy. There isn't a person in the program who wants you to suffer like they have. So when you share with us that you see the abyss of alcoholism on the road ahead and ask for directions around it, you are blessing us all with the wonderful opportunity to give something back to those that gave to us.

Thanks for being here today. Keep coming back biggrin

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

jc2008 wrote:

Something happened to me, and I can't explain it, so I won't try. I just know it has something to do with posting on this board and going to meetings.

that's easy Jen, we call it a "miracle".

A miracle, derived from the old Latin word miraculum meaning "something wonderful", is a striking interposition of divine intervention by a supernatural being in the universe by which the ordinary course and operation of Nature is overruled, suspended, or modified.

Although many religious texts and people confirm witnessing or prophesying various events which they refer to as "miraculous", it is disputed whether there are scientifically confirmed occurrences of miracles^[1]. One notable aspect of these miracles is that they almost invariably manifest themselves to small groups of individuals or we only have hearsay evidence of their occurrence.

People in different faiths have substantially different definitions of the word "miracle". Even within a specific religion there is often more than one usage of the term.

Sometimes the term "miracle" may refer to the action of a supernatural being that is not a god. Thus, the term "divine intervention", by contrast, would refer specifically to the direct involvement of a deity.

In casual usage, "miracle" may also refer to any statistically unlikely but beneficial event, (such as the survival of a natural disaster) or even to anything which is regarded as "wonderful" regardless of its likelihood, such as birth. Other miracles might be: survival of a fatal illness, escaping a life threatening situation or 'beating the odds'.

-- Edited by StPeteDean at 10:31, 2008-03-06

lani · MIP Old Timer

Wow Jem!
Congrats on (over) two weeks!!!! YAAAHOOO! Even without knowing the whys or hows , your baby certainly has seen or felt a change in you! Now thats a miracle! Keep doing what your doing and many more blessings will come your way!

Isnt it great to have the obssession removed! I remember being soo consumed with where Im going to get the money to buy booze, how can I drink with no one knowing (they knew the minute they walked in the door) and just filling my head with crazy stuff! Now I have time to focus on me, my family, HP, Job!!!!!!

The thought may creep into your mind once in a great while but Ive learned to share just where I was at! Meetings or on here, to my sponsor. I quickly learned that telling on myself saved me from myself!

Keep up the great work!!! GO HP and you for being so willing!!!

Lani

Doll · MIP Old Timer

Awesome, isn't it!

Just for today!

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

Dear, Jen x I'm so pleased & proud for you. Your post near moved me close to tears & I'm overjoyed at your miracle in the making. The reality of how much things have changed for you already & because you've been ready & allowed it. There are many times ahead where you will feel desperate & resistant & want to run back to the familiar of what you've known but each time you use the tools of the program to stay away from the first drink 1Day@aTime you will find a freedom & peace you didn't think possible. It's life on life's terms from now. With your eyes open, like watching a movie for the first time or being born again. You are being renewed. This is all new to you & every experience you have that you don't pour a drink on top of will replenish & make you stronger. This indefineable thing you're discovering, your Higher Power, is a lot like love in its simple inexplicable ways. You're going to know new joys & gratitude with humility to boot. I didn't want any of this if it meant I had to sacrifice my ego for self~esteem. Now I'd rather have surrender any day. Your experiences are teaching me too. Thanks for being here & sharing your joy with us. We're here when you need us too. Happy Sober Day, Jen! Danielle x

eastcoastscott · Senior Member

OK, who's gonna wake Jen up and tell her it's just been a dream? hahaha.
Actually, it gets better all the time. I guess you can see all that info and effort coming to fruition and it has to feel great, you've worked hard at this. I think of it as winning a "life" lottery, I get to keep my life and enjoy it as it was meant to be. Drinking and using are simply suicide for this guy and I accept it 100%, that in itself makes this so do-able for me. As the fog lifts and mental clarity takes over, I get to see life in a different way and the beauty is, I get to make better choices this way. It's the people and my HP that hold the key to this and for that, I am grateful.

Scott

lostmdboy · Veteran Member

Sounds like the promisses are coming true for you. guess what though?!? As you work the steps it gets even better. :D

Tuggboat · Senior Member

Nisha · Veteran Member

Congrats Jen..Keep it up.U will see many more beautiful days like these, Iam sure.

Quetzal · MIP Old Timer

Hi Jen,

You really are doing so very well and you should be feeling so proud of how far you have come. I love your enthusiasm for sobriety and your gratitude is shining through.

It's amazing how quickly we can start to change and embrace a whole new way of life and thinking. And, the great thing is that it just keeps on getting better.

Please keep posting as it's wonderful to be sharing your journey with you.

Take care,

Carol

jonijoni · MIP Old Timer

YAAAAYYYY!!!!!!!

So Proud of YOU!!!!!!