Why do I still feel so lousy? I'm nauseated and have a headache. Like a hangover. What the heck?
I read everyone's posts and wonder, will I ever be able to talk about feelings (other than wanting to drink), higher power, letting go, etc.? I feel like a first grader in a college class. I can't imagine ever being as together and grounded as all of you.
Well.....how many years did it take you to get to this point? Thankfully, it won't take as many to get better but it won't be overnight. Please be patient, every day and every hour sober is your investment in your future. Just wait till you get into the steps...and really start feeling better. Have faith and trust, none of us will steer you wrong, promise.
Scott
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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
Hang in there, you're likely to feel better later today. You'll probably have some ups and downs for a few days, but that's better than being down all day. Asap get back to 3 good meals and pleanty of rest. Are you taking vitimens? Someone here will know the right ones to take but you should be taking some good doses of C, D, B, B6, B12. Sublingual (under the tounge small tablets) B12 will give you a tremendous boost in energy but go easy because to much will increase stress. Speaking of stress, watch your caffiene intake and cut down a bit. Without wine etc... you're not needing to jump start yourself as much in the moring. Caffiene = stress, if you use it don't quit but don't over due it either. Look for several daily natural stress relieving activities to do per day. Deep breathing exercises, walk in the park, listen to music, take naps, exercise as much as you can. Today is sunday, focus on relaxing and don't think about tomorrow or next week. It's "one day at a time now" . did they talk about "gratitude lists" in your beginers meeting?
Hi J: Sorry youre still feeling lousy! It will pass and it probably feels alot better than a hangover! And, like you mentioned earlier, you went to dinner and remember it and didnt have anything to apologize for! Your husbands probably excited!
Trust me, you will soon find yourself sharing , sometimes, at least in my case, more than you want to! It doesnt have to be all big book, AA stuff either. Just be You. Im not well versed on any of that stuff but have learned to just share where Im at. It has gotten me out of a lot of situations I didnt think I could handle without drinking! Even on the days I didnt think about drinking, I still called people to just check in!
I even remember a few times where I wanted a drink sooo bad. I posted on here, and like youve personally seen, got so many messages of support! Made me think before I drank! Its the days we dont share, make a call or plain and simple, put it in our minds that we want to drink, thats when were in trouble! So keep doing what your doing!
Lani
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
"Together and well grounded"....... "Will I ever.....?" EXACTLY what I'm sure so many of us thought when we first started out on this journey. For me personally, I'd look around and see all these "happy" people knowing the reasons that had driven them here. OMG.... How do they do it?! Simply put......a step at a time....a day at a time. Even as a non drinker, I can tell you that I struggled with mental, emotional, and physical pain when I hit "my bottom" due to this disease effecting my life, that of AH, and our family. It had seemed like those I knew who had journeyed the ALANON side of this disease had recovered quickly. REALITY of it was quite the opposite, but I was scared to ask such personal questions. I knew something had to be done. I chose AA to understand from the people who fight the disease. I was in a place......at the time......of severe depression. I didn't want to get out of bed and I felt the nausea you spoke of. Asked for meds. two different times about a year apart. I ended up dumping them down the stool.... The reaction my body (or maybe it was my mind) had scared me worse than facing effects of what this disease was doing to my life. I kept telling myself "you can do this, you can do this." "God has handed you this challenge and you can do this." I kept coming back, reading all that I could about the disease, listening and thinking about what others had said, what they did, ect ect. NO IT WAS NOT EASY!!!!! I still have times......but a quick look at the 12 steps, Big book or other literature brings me to a place inside that I am at peace. It is my own personal theory that for alot of people, they assume the first time they walk through the doors of AA, ALANON, or other recovery programs they will be "cured" upon leaving. While they've heard the phrase...."one day at a time..." it is often overlooked at the onset. The past cannot be change and it is OVER.......the future shouldn't be worried about....it will have it's own challenges (some may not have even remotely been in OUR plans).......it is the present that we are given to live. I had to really think and rethink upon that. I wanted my life a certain way......I dwelt on the past far too much as how things used to be with AH. Once I began living "a day at a time"........things began to change....both inside me and around me. There is that old saying......"What doesn't kill us, will make us stronger." You have recognized what alcohol was doing in your life. You took the first few steps. Believe it or not the more you share here or at meetings is a sort of purging of the disease's effect though it may not seem that to you at the present. The very act of calling someone when you were at the grocery when you felt the urge was a "strengthening". And with each day that passes a sort of immunity is being built. Keep coming back, sharing with us your thoughts, feelings, ect. Go to meetings share and listen. Read, read, and meditate upon those things. I PROMISE you it does get better. It is through this program I've been given life again. Prayers for you, Wanda
DON'T QUIT FIVE MINUTES BEFORE THE MIRACLE HAPPENS. It takes four or five days for the alcohol byproducts to clear out of your system, only then does your brain function clearly. Don't be surprised if it starts racing from the lack of stuff to slow it down. After a couple weeks your other body organs will start to function. They have been overloaded with alcohol and all the poisons that are made while our bodies process this chemically poisonous overload. I see your getting plenty of water. A mild walk might speed things up a bit compared to just sitting around. It will pump blood through your liver and kidneys. These just need time to do their work.
"I can't imagine ever being as together and grounded as all of you."
The best way to describe me in this group, "Had no brain, Found a brain and with the 12 step warranty guide, carefully using brain".
You're doing great. The resiliency of the human body is amazing, the discomfort and pain will pass. Meetings and groups will help and guide you with the rest.
For me I didn't wake up an alcoholic, over time I became one and over time I have learnt not to drink and how to continue living life on life's terms. As an alcoholic I had to learn how to deal with things, I spent a lifetime running away instead of dealing with them. The steps and the program help me every day. The truth for me is very clear .... I have NO chance of dealing with them if I drink ... besides, not drinking keeps the lifetime warranty intact on this old brain.
. did they talk about "gratitude lists" in your beginers meeting?
