I'm grateful I don't have to drink anymore... went to a meeting tonight, and was talking to a woman afterward, and she called me when we got home after the meeting and we talked awhile... she had to get to bed so we got off the phone and I called my bf, little bit later the woman called me back, said her daughter had run off the road into the ditch, near my house. She was close enough to my house I could see her hazard lights from the end of the driveway. She asked me to go out there till she could get there. Her daughter had some BS story, it didn't add up. She didn't want to get out of her car and get in mine where it was warmer, said she'd sit there till her mom got there. Then her mom got there, the girl was stumbling around a little... her mom smelled her breath, could smell alcohol... daughter denied it... she had me smell her breath, I could smell it, daughter still denied it... Just grateful I don't have to do all that stuff anymore... Thankfully she wasn't hurt, no one else was involved...
also grateful I was able to go out there... been so manic all week, and this woman knew that, knew I was still wound up tonight but I had at least slept last night. When she called she asked if I was able to go out, which I was. I just don't drive when I've been up for way too long... I know she was worried about her daughter being out there alone on the highway, and at least having another car stopped out there would make it just a bit safer I guess... put her more at ease anyway.
Oh, went in for that assessment this morning, actually spent last night at my sponsor's and she took me today. they wanted to put me inpatient, to get me on meds, keep me in there a few days... I wouldn't do it, agreed to outpatient, well, that didn't work out cuz there's not anywhere close enough, and Medicare doesn't cover outpatient at this place... so got a list of doctors, they told me if I call to make the appt and tell them I went through intake at the psych hospital and need to get in soon, it might help with getting in sooner... we'll see, calling Monday. My sponsor knows some people from AA that work at a psychiatric office near here, she's going to ask them if they can get me in there sooner, actually it's where my dr was trying to get me in, so not sure if it will work, but maybe knowing someone there might help. But I'm doing better now that I got a bit of sleep last night, been really wound up tonight but finally getting tired... found out the trick is to get to bed soon as I start getting tired and I have a better chance of sleeping before I get wound up again... but thought y'all might wanna know how the assessment turned out...
Hey Lisa! Keep up the good work and trust in your HP! I am definately praying for you hun! Take care of yourself. Love in the Fellowship of the Spirit, Allison
I am first, so glad your sponsor's daughter was alright. My mother passed away in an alcoholic car accident when I was very young, and then I went on to have many DUI's and accidents. That I did not meet that same end is a miracle, and proof that my Higher Power has good things in store for my life; that He's not finished with me yet.
Great news also that you went to the assessment, and that you have people who 'know people' who may be able to get you in close to home. I worked at an inpatient center a few years ago, and the waiting list was often months long. But lo and behold, they would manage to fit folks in sooner, when the client had someone on the "inside" pulling for them, so to speak. Seems like HP has put some people and circumstances in your path to help you out, so please let us know how it turns out!!
Joni
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keep on cluckin!!