Often I think of how great sobriety is but then remember how great being drunk is waking up sober is a great feeling but the promise that alcohol offeres is so ...fulfilling.
Hi Frenzle, good to see you back. I dunno, if being drunk were all that great I wouldn't be here. I figure that 'promise' isn't true, it's a lie. The disease will make promises right up til it puts you in the grave. I had to learn to replace those lies with truths. " I promise that you will lie in your own puke every night I can make it possible. I promise you wont' keep your job, or the friends that matter, or the family that loves you. I promise I will kill you if you give me the chance. Yes, I will love you to death". Don't believe the lies, Frenzle, believe the truths that are in your heart of hearts. Keep that light going, Wren
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"Never argue with an idiot... They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience..."
For me, being drunk was a total nightmare. I never liked getting drunk and it was the very last thing that I wanted. But, once I had picked up the first drink I couldn't put it back down. Alcohol didn't hold anything for me except more misery, suffering and pain to me and to those close to me.
In the early days of my sobriety, I still mentally obsessed about having a drink. But, I wrote out a list of all of the embarrassing and completely stupid things that I had done when I was drunk. I'd re-read them and suddenly the thought of having a drink had lost its appeal. That's what helped me combined with lots of AA meetings and contact with members.
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Often I think of how great sobriety is but then remember how great being drunk is waking up sober is a great feeling but the promise that alcohol offeres is so ...fulfilling.
Makes a helluva lotta sense to me, because I feel like that almost every day. Satisfying a craving is fulfilling as hell. But that doesn't make it a good thing. Waking up sober, remembering what you did the night before, fresh, non-toxic, clear... I'll take that any day of the week over a couple hours of self-indulgent drinking, which is never healthy or good, for the mind or body.
ZB
-- Edited by ZB at 18:54, 2006-11-21
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"You can't always write a chord ugly enough to say what you want to say, so sometimes you have to rely on a giraffe filled with whipped cream." Frank Zappa
I personally wouldn't use the word fulfilling but the word powerful.
It is powerful how the mind works and how it can trick you into thinking that something is good for us when it is not. It is that dark force that tells me that and I wish to stay in the light!
