Ever have one of those days where nothing seems to go right? Well, it's been one! It's like the simplest tasks become near impossible feats of strength. LOL! Was at work today just struggling, struggling and that's when all those crappy feelings started kicking in. Man, oh man. What to do? I made to lunch in one piece, went back to work and finally said FU** This. Went to the bathroom, hid in a stool and started praying. God, help this ignorant fool!! Can't say everything was perfect afterwards but it became a little easier to deal with. Took it easy and just set a pace to follow. My head is feeling better tonight, looking forwards to relaxing and watching the big game(Miami/Dallas). Oh well, I just lost all forms of coherent thoughts.
Just to let you know you are NOT alone, the last week has been o.k. and then today, WACK, frozen in fear, fear about what, cannot tell you. head has been racing all day, Body has been feeling like I have a 2000 lb. rock holding me back from the simplist of things, UGH. Called a Friend, my co-Sponsor and said "Help" we share a lot of this mind not working properly stuff, so when after talking with her for 1/2 hour, felt 58 1/2% better, almost 60% but not quite.
Anyway, I am going to have to chalk this day up as just a "lost day" will have some dinner and go to bed early.
I did some Praying, and after about 1/2 hour, I said o.k. guess You are busy with doing other things, you cannot hear me.
His Time, not my time, eh?
A bad day can usually be followed by a better day, has been my experience, and it would not take too much to improve this one.
My orders to myself for the rest of the day, "Don't think, do something, anything, Frozen in Fear, when you don't know what the fear is about, can make you feel, well no words explain it.
Acute anxiety attack out of NO WHERE, I am going with what Dan wrote yesterday, I am in the Right Group here, battling Insanity on a daily basis.
And I will close with no thinking, so no more to say.................................... (brain is now in "Blank" mode............................................................... ................................................................................................ ........................................................................................
