i have been feeling pretty stuck in this last week. I have this Strong desire to do the Steps in Order again.
I have been going to weekly Step Meetings, and have had the need to re-do the Steps, have asked a few people, but with the amount of time in the Program, no one else is will to do these steps in order with me. I had a woman, more or less agree to Sponsor me and she really responded with, we can co-sponsor each other, and I do have her friendship, that I cherish. She has no interest in doing the Steps.
Have one Person, that I am sponsoring, that wants to stay in the first Step, for a while, and so I agreed to that.
But what has been on my mind lately, is that maybe what I need to do here is 12 Step myself in doing the first Step again.
For those that have been in the Program, for a while, and continue working the steps, sometimes letting the Steps just work us, is not working for me, this time, lacks good orderly direction.
It has been too long for me, to be away from doing these steps, IN ORDER, and am wondering for those of you, that have experienced this 'stuck spot', I would appreciate some advice here.
It is possible to work these steps solo, have done it many times before, using a Therapist, that is still available for the 5th Step. But I am procratinating so much, cannot Kickstart myself into ACTION.
It starts with willingness, I believe that.
Any tips would greatly be appreciated. I have a Birthday coming up on the 12th of September, and my gift I would like to give myself, is the Completion of the Steps, again, that are the way out of any "isms" that may be lingering around. And I feel, without the Proactive approach to these Steps, those "isms" just keep building up steam, doing their Push-ups.
When I Pray about this, the message I keep getting back, is JUST DO THEM!
Has anyone ever 12th Stepped themselves into the re-working of these 12 Steps?
Just figured out the problem. I have been used to having a book, A gental Path thur the 12 Steps. As a workbook. Don't have any left, and they were all used up as workbooks, anyway, I do have my first one, but that is so scribbled on, it is now useless.
So I just ordered a new Copy, and will get it in the mail in 1 - 2 weeks, every step is a written step.
So thanks for the thoughts, now I will be on my way in a week or so.
Cannot believe I forgot how using this book, made it a very simple process.
I think I have what Phil always calls "Sometimers" creeping in. And that's never good, well sometimes. haha.
i am a "step a holic" and in order , however sometimes, when i am having a defect problem, or noticing my feelings, i'll jump into step 4 to do my "self aware" , but yeah, i do believe in the order of the steps
its hard to find folks who WANT to do it.....i LOVE the steps....i mean i have workbooks / hard copy and email workbooks that i work...on ALL of them......i trully believe that the steps are what r causing me to progress as good as i am....
i had sponsers/ sponsees that are kinda funny on the steps too...either jumbled...or stuck in one step. or NO steps.......
i just say "ok, whatever u gotta do" and i just work em by myself if i have to but i work em.........over and over and over and over................i am glad to C that U R interested in working them as well...............U go girl!!! hugs, rosie
