I'm sure this has been a topic many a time...but nevertheless, I was reminded just this evening how DRINKING is not my problem anymore but rather my THINKING!
"Keep it simple"
"Easy does it"
both very important slogans for me right now....and both things I haven't been practicing.
Soooo tonight I'm feeling a little Loco. I went to my Meeting as I do every Wednesday and the topics were affecting. "Letting go, absolutely" and "Keep it simple". I felt some serenity during the Meeting, but now back home I'm feeling wierd. My head is working overtime and I wish it would just shuddup! I know what I need to do...I need to go pray...I need to seek my Higher Power....because I know that when I'm feeling this way, it's because I'm not spiritually connected with my HP. But I needed to come here first and just write some out a bit.
To be honest...I'm feeling pretty insane right now and I haven't had a moment like this in a long while. I don't know whether I want to bawl my eyes out or rage. I've had so much clarity, serenity, and graditude for the past couple months, but right now I'm feeling stressed out. Stressed because every day is sooooo much work. I'm tired. I think that's my main problem tonight....I'm tired but can't sleep well because of my back pain....pain that I hardly felt until I sobered up 4.5 months ago. Go figure! And I can't take anything stronger than extra str. Tylenol cuz I'm a pill popper!
I'm just venting here....I'm not going to drink....I just needed to complain a bit...ramble a bit. No need to reply-just getting this all out of my head. *SMACK* Time to get back into the Solution, Dana!
Stepping down off my pity-pot and bidding ya'll sweet dreams.
"I'm sure this has been a topic many a time...but nevertheless, I was reminded just this evening how DRINKING is not my problem anymore but rather my THINKING!
"Keep it simple"
"Easy does it"
me____________oh wow, can i relate to THIS........for me its in my HEAD....and the as phil said "itty bitty shitty committee" workin on me......keep it simple.......easy does it.......SLOW down......THINK.......if i can do that and i am slowly learning, i can stay sober physically AND mentally.............gr8 post, dana, u r sooooo right......friends in recovery, rosie
Wren, Phil, Rosie...thank you for your encouragments! Although I said no need to reply, I really did need the replies! LOL
So it's settled...I'm still sick...my ego was telling me I wasn't. C'est la vie!
After I logged off last night I prayed...and then I went to bed and would you believe it...I slept like a log, getting up only once to have an extremely satisfying pee, and then back to bed and immediately asleep not waking up again until the my alarm! Amazing!!!
So...the 'Itty Bitty Shitty Committee' is back on hiatus!
Was laughing so hard at your last Post, about the waking up part, yep rigerous honesty, still laughing.
So Happy to hear the thinking is back on vacation.
Took me a while, to see, as Phil stated, that after i sat there for a long time, listening, in that first year, could figure out it was my thinking that was the Problem.
Don't, drink, and Don't think, that was my motto for many, many years. It helped me start speaking from my heart, not my head.
Still have to watch out for the thinking,
Big hugs to you, and I have a park bench I was trying to figure out how to get in here on MIP. so you could sit down and take a break, once in a while, like every 2 days or so, Haha!
