Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace. Amelia Earhart
When we feel angry, lonely, worried, or sad we can ask ourselves, “Is there a pattern here?” That simple question can help us take a giant step forward in recovery. When we feel these things, most of us feel like victims. We’re not used to taking responsibility for our part in our problems. If we find ourselves broke again, ending a romantic relationship again, having the same argument this year that we had last year, we may have established a self-destructive pattern. Not because we’re stupid but because we aren’t familiar with happiness & stir up what we know best: misery.
Looking for patterns in our behavior & accepting responsibility for them takes honesty & courage. But when we put aside our fears & really see what we’re doing, we’ve taken a huge step in changing. Happiness may feel downright strange at first, but we can get used to it.
Today help me see the patterns I create & grant me the courage to change.
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Life is short..Live it sober to the fullest...One day at a time...
Thanks, my friend. Something I needed to be reminded of today. Going thru some real shit here, but the good news is today I can take responsiblity and although I still have fears I can tackle them head on AND I don't want to drink!!!
I remember in the beginning of my sobriety, that I was totally unprepared for the lack of drama in my life. For years and years, I had attracted and fed into situations that caused me pain, because I felt that was what I deserved. If it didn't hurt like hell, then it wasn't love. It was an extremely hard pattern to break.
Becoming used to serenity and peace was a big step for me. To feel worthy of those things was even bigger.
It was in my relationship with my HP, and the people around those tables, that gave me the "okay" to learn first, how to care about myself, and second, how to care for others in a healthy and constructive way. I learned that I really did deserve good things in my life, but I was so used to unhealthy and destructive things, I hardly knew how to live without them.
Thank Gods for the people of AA that loved me back into loving myself...Thanks Phil, Wren
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Funny, isn't it, how friends and a Power greater than ourselves can neutralize nightmares?
